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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    11 Apr 2026

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    Shane rested his forehead against Ilya’s, closing his eyes. “I’m gonna ride you, is that okay?”

    Ilya nipped at his bottom lip. “I don’t know, let me think. This is same as asking me, is Shane Hollander the best hockey player in the world? Obviously yes.”

    And oh, the honest praise was all worth it for the private smile that lit up Shane’s face right then. He kissed Ilya once, slow and sweet. “Shut up,” he murmured, smiling into it. “You’re an asshole.”

    Ilya was a little achy with how happy he was, such a wild contrast to his overwhelming grief only moments ago. “I finally admit you are better than me, and now I am an asshole? I think not, Hollander.” He gripped Shane’s hips and flipped them over, the sound of Shane’s breathy laughter while Ilya kissed him into the mattress like medicine for his soul.

    Episode 5 in depth: the beach, the all-star game, and if Shane and Ilya made love in that hotel room before confessing their love.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    “Is my favourite thing.” Ilya murmurs.

    The rain has started to slow down a little. Barely any lightning strikes anymore. Soon, the sky will clear.

    “What is?” Shane asks.

    Ilya brings their joined hands up to his face and presses a small, tired smile to the back of Shane’s hand. “You and me.”

    (or: they’re best friends who go on a roadtrip together.)

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    07 Apr 2026

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    Shane fucking Hollander. Hockey’s Golden Boy. Long-time crush of Ilya Rozanov. Long, looooong time. A decade of being a fucking simp for this man. God, he was in trouble.

    It should be pretty much illegal to go from their only contact being at face-off across the ice, to suddenly hosting Shane in his exclusive club—during a fucking event, no less. Ilya’s event.

    He would never admit it, but he’s been stealthily trying to get Hollander to show up at his club for years now. Hell, Shane was the whole reason he invested in the club in the first place. Bought a fucking house here. Maybe that was an insane thing to do, but he didn’t care. Ilya was insane. Insane for Shane.

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    10 Mar 2026