acciosocks (teflonpan)
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Eddie, ten years younger, in this awful 2010, blinks up at him. He's still sitting slumped on the curb, and for a second Buck thinks he might tell him to fuck off, but then his eyes fall shut and there’s something — aching and painfully vulnerable in the bend of his mouth, the faint tension in his brow. “My…um, girlfriend, I guess. She’s pregnant.”
“Holy shit,” Buck says.
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or, buck deals with some wonky dimensional/time travel and then breaks up with his girlfriend. eddie, obviously, is involved.
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Bookmarked by acciosocks (teflonpan)
03 Feb 2022
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saw the words “2010 eddie” and IMMEDIATELY clicked, this kind of time travel relationship exploration makes me go APESHIT!!! it’s about remembering the people you love and loving the specific version of them that you DO have but wondering what out of thousands of things could change! i wept! 10/10 will revisit when i want to believe in love and the universe. ❤️
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Buck tells Eddie he’s in love with him. Eddie pines.
or, five times eddie watches buck leave, and the one time he goes after him
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Bookmarked by acciosocks (teflonpan)
28 Apr 2022
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Eddie’s been back at work for about two weeks—his time after quitting had passed in a seemingly idyllic week of spending time with his son which got rudely interrupted by a full-scale mental breakdown that ended with tears and hugs and Buck lovingly bullying him into going to therapy again. Then therapy had brought even more tears and confusion and slowly ballooning financial concerns that culminated in Eddie undertaking the frankly painful process of reapplying to the LAFD and completing an equally painful remedial training course.
And everything was fine until—Eddie started having a problem.
(summer break, queer awakenings, and learning to let yourself be happy: a story in four acts)
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19 Mar 2022
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woke up the girl who looked just like you, i almost said your name by rarakiplin (gmontys)
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13 Jan 2022
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“You forgot this at my place,” he says, dropping a set of keys into Eddie’s hand. “Figured you’d need them to get home.”
“Oh,” Eddie says, looking down at his own hand for a second before aiming a grin up at Tommy, who’s got one or two inches on him. “Thanks.”
Tommy’s resulting grin fades into a wince when he glances over Eddie’s shoulder and catches the surprise on Chim’s face. “Sorry, is it, like, disrespectful to wear hats in here? Like in school?” He tugs the beanie off, and he’s got dirty blond curls that tumble loosely over his forehead.
Chim blinks, then blinks again, because with the hair Eddie's...friend almost looks like—No. He can’t look like Buck, actually, because that would be the funniest thing to ever happen in the history of humankind and Chimney would have to quit his job to dedicate the rest of his life to laughing about it.
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Or, five times Eddie dates a guy a little too similar to Buck, and one time he dates the real deal.
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Bookmarked by acciosocks (teflonpan)
15 Jan 2022
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eddie's not entirely sure he believes in getting help, at least not for himself. there's only so much healing to be had for a body torn apart by bullets, for a mind that's only half there, for a man who's been leaving pieces of himself behind all his life with nothing to take their place.
except, as it turns out, falling apart happens in increments, and healing does, too: it happens when you gnaw a hole in your lip trying to keep quiet only to have the words escape; when you realize that the ghost you've been seeing out of the corner of your eye is yourself; when your best friend smiles, and you allow it to take your breath away.
it happens through the smallest of things: bird feeders, and cacti, and pasta shapes.
meanwhile, the world goes on.
(or: the entity often affectionately referred to as the unrepression fic.)
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Bookmarked by acciosocks (teflonpan)
05 Jan 2022
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i have never read something that took me apart so thoroughly and held me all the way through it. i WILL be coming back to some of these lines when i need reassurance about my queerness. god. thank you.