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    “Enough, okay? You always have too many questions.”

    A flash of hurt darts across Shane’s face. “I’m just trying to help.”

    “Well, I don’t need help. I’m not like you, Shane,” Ilya bites out. “I do not need to be coddled.”

    Shane wheels back as though he’s been shoved.
     

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    Shane plans a traditional Russian memorial for the anniversary of Irina's death.

    Ilya has an adverse reaction.

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    18 Jul 2026

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    Ilya knows that no one loves the same version of a person; his Shane is different to Yuna’s Shane, who is different to David’s Shane, who is different to J.J., or Rose, or Hayden’s Shane. And while Ilya knows he’d fall in love with every single version, he’s happy he gets this one. Happy he gets the Shane who lets himself be trusting, and vulnerable, and honest.

    It makes Ilya wish he could have loved Shane earlier - makes him wish he could have known him longer. But he’s just glad he gets to do it now, here, like this.

     

    (Or, four times people are surprised by Shane’s clinginess, and one time they completely expect it.)

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    13 Jul 2026

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    “Go?” Rozanov repeats, and Shane thinks he manages to nod, thinks he manages to spin some kind of excuse that he knows Rozanov doesn’t really buy, but he needs to go. He needs to get out of here. He needs to find somewhere quiet and calm where he can ride out this panic and painful tightness until he can catch his breath again. He needs-

    He needs to go.

    “I’m sorry,” he says, turning heel and resisting the urge to just book it right for the front door only because he’d rather not have to explain to Hayden why he returned from a hookup with Boston Lily in men’s clothes that he certainly didn’t leave in.

    It’s not until he makes it halfway up the stairs to Rozanov’s bedroom that it occurs to him in a cold rush that it isn’t just anxiety that makes it this hard to breathe.

    “No,” he tells himself firmly, white knuckling the bannister and trying to take a deep breath just to prove that he can.

    It wheezes.

    (how the tuna meltdown is averted through the power of food allergies and anaphylaxis)

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    06 Jul 2026

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    Ilya makes comments about Shane talking too much.

    Shane takes him seriously and attempts to stop talking.

    It doesn’t go well.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Shane tries to remember, peering into the darkness surrounding the car with a furrowed brow. It hurts to move, and he feels something warm and slick sliding down his cheek.

    More blood, his mind supplies rather unhelpfully.

    He was driving after dark, but he shouldn’t have been. He wasn’t supposed to be. They had all night together, so why is he here?

    I already chose you, Hollander.

    Shane inhales sharply as his mind slowly fills in the gaps in his memory. They fought. Ilya told him to leave. Shane did.

    And then he crashed.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Ilya has always known Shane could do better than him. It shouldn’t come as a surprise that he’s finally found it.

    Found someone else.

    Because that’s what this is, isn’t it?

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    26 May 2026

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    Shane can’t look at him. He can’t really look at anyone but he manages to lift his head and stare right back into Troy’s glistening eyes.

    “I never had that advantage, Troy. I never got to take it out on anyone, for any of it. All the times I got on that ice to play some hockey and some… fuckwit idiot like Kent, or whoever was calling me slurs— whether they were gay ones or racist ones… I couldn’t just hurl them back and call it a day like you did.”

    He swallows hard. He thinks he might be sick a little bit in his mouth.

    “You know how fucking lucky you are? To have gotten away with it? They love you, Barrett. This team loves you! You’re fucking celebrated because you overcame this big, terrible thing but for me it’s—”

    He thinks about his mom in that very split second. His beautiful, wonderful mom who’d coached him his entire life on how to be polite, how to be well behaved. How to answer to teachers the right way, to coaches, to cops to the press to the general public to his fucking teammates—

    He looks away. The fight suddenly drains right out of him and he goes back to his bag.

    or: shane decides to confront troy if no one else will

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    25 May 2026

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    “I’m telling you, Shane,” Ilya says. “I take birthdays very seriously.”

    Shane lets out a dignified snort. “Sure.”

    “And I take your birthday the most seriously. It is my job as your boyfriend, yeah?”

    Shane’s heart squeezes in his chest. “Yeah, okay.”

    Ilya smiles, his eyes softening. “Moy lyubimiyy,” he murmurs. “I am going to celebrate you the way you deserve.”
     
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    Shane is used to being told he’s impossible to buy a birthday present for. It’s not exactly fun to be reminded of this fact about himself year after year, but he’s come to accept that it’s probably his own fault. After all, what do you give a man who has zero interests outside hockey and keeps his cards close to his chest?

    Turns out, his boyfriend might have a few ideas.

    (Or, Shane celebrates his birthday with Ilya for the first time since they started dating, and Ilya proves he’s the indisputable king of giving gifts.)

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    18 May 2026

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    Ilya makes Shane play a new game Harris sent him called “Is It Cheating or Not?” and, against his better judgment, Shane decided to play. It goes exactly as well as you’d expect. Which is to say, somewhere between his messing around, Ilya decides to get in his car and drives across Montréal to deal with it personally...much to Hayden Pike’s absolute horror.

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    A question game about cheating and relationship boundaries goes wrong, and Ilya quickly finds himself stressed over what Shane thinks he can do...and where he is right now.

    BRAND NEW HAYDEN’s REVENGE CHAPTER!!

    After the cheating game Shane and Ilya dragged him into, Hayden decides it’s finally time for revenge. During a boys’ night out with Shane, he turns the game back on Ilya with his own “is it cheating if Shane…” questions, using Ilya’s imagination against him for once.

    Unfortunately for Hayden, the night spirals faster than expected, and he quickly learns there are some disasters only a husband can clean up.

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    17 May 2026

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    Ilya knew, right from the very moment he met Shane Hollander, that he would never be good enough for him. He’d seemed so…pristine, when they first met. Untouched. And Ilya knew his unclean hands would only dirty him up. He’s always been selfish, though; his father used to tell him that.

    So it’s no surprise, really, that Shane has finally gotten tired of it. Of him, always needing more from Shane than he deserves - always begging for more than he has earned.

    Ilya would leave himself, too, if he could.

    (Or, five time Ilya thought Shane would leave, and one time he knew he wasn’t going anywhere.)

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    13 May 2026

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    A misunderstanding leads to Shane being iced out of the Centaurs when he first joins. Ilya and Shane love each other, but does the team thing so?

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    12 May 2026

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    Something isn’t right. Something isn't right and Svetlana knows it, and she's lost far too many good things by not trusting her instincts. Ilya leaving with a woman in public? That's expected. Ilya leaving with a man in public? Sure, it's happened before, even if the public wasn't actually aware of what they were looking at. 

    But leaving for a threesome, in public? In a bar where anyone could be taking photos? Don't make her laugh - Ilya would never. 

    And then it hits her:  
    Ilya's slight stumble;
    The way he only had three drinks over the past two hours, barely enough to get him tipsy;
    The way he's not even holding the girl or the guy's hand.
    The way he's not even trying to kiss either of them. 
    The way he keeps pulling slightly against the girl's grip like he can't understand what's happening. 
    Shit.

    Ilya's been fucking roofied.

    Or, Ilya gets roofied at a club and Svetlana needs to him someone who can care take of him. Luckily, they're in Montreal, where Ilya's illusive Jane lives.
    Surely she'll be able to help!
    ...Right?

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    10 May 2026

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    “I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”

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    An exploration of Shane Hollander's struggle against racism and homophobia in hockey, and how others come to understand it

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    08 May 2026

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    Shane pats Parker’s shoulder, such a genuine gesture that Ilya wonders where he’s going with this. “Do a favor for me?” He leans in a little closer, physically blocking Parker from seeing Ilya.

    “What?”

    Shane’s smile fades away. His voice is stern, final when he answers. “Get back to your team, and step the fuck away from my husband?”

    He doesn't bother to mince his words. Not tonight, with Ilya being as exhausted as he is, and not with Ilya being uncomfortable. He rarely gets to see him this outwardly protective. He expected Shane to come over, grab his hand and lead him away from the booth with some random excuse. But this—this is Shane losing his patience for all of those manners. His only concern is Ilya.

    —a collection of moments where Shane takes care of Ilya during a depressive episode.

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    04 May 2026

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    Being a secret boyfriend means you have to watch the love of your life win his third Stanley Cup from the discomfort of your own couch, in an empty and cold home.

    Unless, of course, your secret boyfriend’s ex decides to buy a suite, get you a makeover, and sneak you into the arena.

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    Rose Landry buys a suite for the final game of the 2020 Stanley Cup Playoffs and invites Ilya.

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    03 May 2026

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    “Boyfriend?” Shane asked weakly.

    “Is that what you’re crying about, zajchik?” Ilya asked gently. His face was so earnest that Shane almost wished he would tease him instead.

    Or: Back at the cottage, Shane fully processes having a boyfriend and works through some shit.

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    03 May 2026

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    Mystery Work

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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    28 Apr 2026

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    He knew it stung Ilya, people not understanding. It stung him too. Because to Shane, loving Ilya was like breathing and also like standing on solid ground after years of drifting. It flooded him and steadied him at the same time. It hurt, knowing the world reduced them to a rivalry, a strange story, a piece of scandalous gossip when what they had was so much more. He wanted to be by Ilya’s side for everything, the mundane, the bright and the hard. And maybe not everyone who was in love felt like this, so overwhelmed and so steadied all at once. But Shane did. And if love was a contest, well… he is the winner.
    Best couple. Number one. Most epic love story ever.

    Or 4 times Shane told people him and Ilya were practically soulmates and the 1 time the universe told him.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    "Please, Rozanov, just tell me what's going on." It is so earnest, so gentle, and Ilya does not deserve it. "Don't leave without—"

    "Hollander," Ilya pleads for him to stop, puts out his hand as a peace offering.

    "Ilya.

    or; ilya has a bad day. shane helps.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    "I am bored, tell me your celebrity sex story ?"

    Buffy @sunnydalespike Mine is Ilya Rozanov. I know he is married now to THE Shane Hollander. Lucky him. But I was in Boston for holidays at the time and I went clubbing with my girls. Rozanov was there with some of his teammates. He was not here to play around. Def some agressive flirting. We made out on the dancefloor. Great kisser btw, lots of tongues, lots of hands. And he came to my hotel. We had sex, some great sex. He is a giver. He made me come at least 2-3 times before he finished.

    Gaby @DesperateGaby Omg girl same. Rozanov, one of the hottest night of my life. That man is a good in bed.

    Or : A thread about Rozanov's whore era on twitter goes viral

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    21 Apr 2026

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