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    Before Ilya can bite out a teasing remark at his state, Hollander starts to speak in a jumble of words that seem like they’ve been on the verge of spilling out for a long time.

    “Don't marry her, Ilya." Hollander says desperately, now using the hold they had on each other for balance just a moment ago, to keep Ilya from running away. “Please, don’t marry her.”

    “Hollander?” Ilya says the name dumbly, at a loss for how to answer.

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    Marrying Svetlana seems like the obvious solution to the growing pile of problems in Ilya's life. It's not like Hollander would care since he's dating one of the biggest movie stars in the world. Right?

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    18 Jun 2026

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    After the tuna melt meltdown, Shane meets Rose Landry, has several deeply inconvenient revelations, and decides to do the only sensible thing: win Ilya back with sincerity, logistics, and a frankly alarming amount of emotional effort.

    Ilya, meanwhile, mistakes every tender gesture for the kind prelude to an inevitable goodbye.

    Or: Shane is living in a romcom. Ilya is living in a Russian tragedy.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    “I mean yeah, it stung a little that it felt like you just wanted to fuck me and be over with it, but I was used to that.” Shane starts explaining.

    Ilya can’t help the hurt noise that escapes him.

    “But uh, we didn’t kiss.” Shane tacks on.

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    Ilya finds out that Shane dropped in Vegas.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Ilya makes comments about Shane talking too much.

    Shane takes him seriously and attempts to stop talking.

    It doesn’t go well.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    “I need… I need to tell you something, Hollander.” Ilya squeezes his eyes shut, willing his mouth to stop trembling. Tears roll down his face, church-quiet, silent as prayers, and Ilya touches his cheek curiously, as if he didn’t know his eyes could do that. He can’t remember the last time he cried. It might have been behind the curtains of their Moscow apartment, right after his mother died. Death seems to have this effect on him.

    “Spit it out, I haven’t got all day.”

    Ilya visualizes Shane’s furrowed eyebrows — his angry kitten face, as he likes to call it in his head — and thinks, No, I haven’t got all day either. In fact, I might not have any day left after this, and a miserable laugh escapes him at the thought.

    The airplane crash happens way earlier in the timeline. Shane and Ilya aren’t together yet — in fact, they haven’t even admitted their feelings to themselves, until the perspective of death and an ill-timed confession completely reshuffles the cards.

    Or, Ilya confesses his love to Shane during the plane crash, and Shane thinks it’s a prank in very bad taste.

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    10 Jun 2026