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    Shane Hollander is the sole Omega within the NHL. He’s been running from his own instincts since the moment he first presented and lives his life akin to that of a Beta; scentless, never nesting, and without a heat cycle. Any failure to conform to these ideals would result in being outcast from his peers and by the league altogether.

    Ilya is the only Alpha in ice hockey that plays without the use of suppressants. He lives his life purely driven by instinct, running from the ghosts of those attempting to control him. Unbeknownst to Shane, he’s also the only person that can smell the Omega, and the scent is steadily driving the Alpha insane.

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    20 Jul 2026

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    There was something wrong with Shane Hollander.

    He had known it since he was young.

    Most people-most kids, in general-had different hobbies and interests. Their attention drifted from one thing to another. They became fascinated with something for a few weeks, only to abandon it for the next shiny obsession that caught their eye.

    Shane had never been like that.

    When it came to him, there was only ever one thing: hockey.

    Obsessive.

    That was the word most people used when referring to his temperament.

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    19 Jul 2026

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    “Hollander,” Ilya murmured gently. “Bath is ready.”

    Shane cracked his eyes open, staring dumbly at the burly Russian hovering over him where he was still laying in bed.

    “…bath?” He croaked, voice raspy with disuse.

    “Mm. I ran you a bath. It will make you feel better before you go to sleep tonight. Will help with your sore muscles.”

    Shane asks Ilya to fuck him gently during one of their regular hookups, badly bruised from their game. Ilya runs him a bath afterwards, and they fall secretly and desperately in love that way, through whispered confessions and late night conversations while Shane soaks, and Ilya quietly observes him.

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    16 Jul 2026

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    "Chlamydia?" Ilya has never heard Hollander's voice reach such heights in the absence of a cock. "You have chlamydia?"

    "I did not get it on purpose," Ilya complains.

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    16 Jul 2026

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    The rules of the sex interview were not explained because the rules were the point. The room needed to see the specific heterosexual performance that proved you were the right kind of boy—the kind who had done the expected things and would keep doing them and had nothing to hide.

    Shane had the girl ready. He’d built her in the shower a week ago, just in case.

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    Or: Shane learns, in order, how to skate, how to perform, how to survive a room, and how to want something he will not name for years. Featuring minor hockey, the OHL, one fabricated girl named Jess, and eleven pages of notes on one Ilya Rozanov, who he has never met. Yet.

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    16 Jul 2026

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  6. Public Bookmark 38

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    Shane ran with a fury – channeling every ounce of shame, anger, hurt, and disdain he possessed. He ran with a purpose: to catalogue every misstep and maintain his stamina.

    Each time he replayed the interaction or thought of Ilya alone again in his cottage, he bit down harder on his lip and ran faster, feet slamming against the trail.

    A guttural cry pierced the air as Shane fell to the ground, the dense dirt leaving burn marks on the skin of his elbows. For one terrifying second, his vision went white, his lungs forgot how to expand, and he lay motionless, face pressed into the earth.

    He thought of the fight he’d had with Ilya, his own voice echoing in his head: “This is who I am. You know that. I give everything I have to hockey.”

    He was Shane Hollander: the best player in the MLH; he was fine, he told himself – he didn't need Ilya.

    It was a lie.

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Finally, something dawns on him, a way to handle two goals simultaneously. He’d seen Hollander’s mother flipping through papers rapidly when they first got here, seeming calm and in control and more than a little frightening in a way that made Ilya mildly glad he wasn’t one of the people responsible for a clipboard. If anyone can tell him if the long list of “Prohibited Items” he’d been sent in his email a few days ago is just standard practice for big shoots, it would be Yuna Hollander.

    Or, hopefully, her son.

    “Crazy we cannot even have peanut butter, eh?” He asks. “You also got giant list?”

    Hollander stiffens, almost imperceptibly, and Ilya tilts his head, just slightly, confused, wondering if he’s stumbled somewhere unexpected.

    (how ilya learns about shane's allergies) (and shane's sexual awakening tragically hits a speedbump in the process 😔)

    (chapters can standalone but will be updated as inspiration strikes)

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    14 Jul 2026

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    12 Jul 2026

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    Missed call: jackie’s husband

    Missed call: jackie’s husband

    jackie's husband
    Ilya pick up

    jackie’s husband
    PICK UP

    Missed call: jackie’s husband

    jackie’s husband
    Ilya something is happening to Shane pick up the fucking phone

    After Shane trips, the Metros take out their frustrations on him.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    In their first year of playing together on the Centaurs, Shane and Ilya have multi-day argument over sexual compatibility.

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    04 Jul 2026

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    shane craves the kind of intensity that his happy, long-term relationship simply cannot provide. ilya lives next door with his boyfriend, and wants shane anyway.

    (or, two couples! one apartment building! and infidelity!)

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander starts going to therapy. There's no winning at this, it turns out.

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    02 Jul 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 18

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    5 times Shane is consumed by his own mind + 1 time he finds his balance

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Based on a tumblr post from @notahungrywish, ending with:

    Just Shane casually assuming he'll always have to share and never be enough for Ilya and Ilya horrified to realize just how resigned Shane is to assuming Ilya will never be satisfied with him the way Shane is with Ilya.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    After the tuna melt incident, after he ran out on Ilya, after Rose, Shane is determined on righting his wrong and winning back his man. But a catastrophic and nearly fatal accident on the ice threatens to put a pin in Shane’s plans indefinitely.

    While in a coma Shane finds himself confronted with the question, what if he didn’t run out on Ilya that day? What if he stayed? What follows is them coming to terms with their true feelings for each other, taking care of each other and a series of events that is basically a speed walk through the obstacles in the way of them and the life they want to have with each other.

    Includes a lot of (inaccurate) medical stuff, Yuna and David being supportive parents, Hayden and JJ being supportive friends and an intimate but not at all sexual shower scene.

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    Chapter 7:

    “Tell Montreal I have their captain. I will contact them with my demands.”

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    01 Jul 2026

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    It does mean missing out on things like barbeques and team dinners sometimes, but it’s not as if he would have been able to participate anyway. At this point in his life, risking someone not taking his allergies seriously would mean potentially missing games, which makes it unacceptable. Jackie always makes sure he has a dish or two that’s safe when he’s over at their house, but if he was going to be the one guy sitting and drinking ginger ale instead of taking part in sharing nachos or Korean barbeque or burgers or any other delicious thing he goes in knowing he can’t have anyway, there’s no point in making a fuss about it. He eats at home, has a drink with everyone else, and he calls it a day. Easy. Safe. Foolproof.

    But also the reason it doesn’t occur to him that he hasn’t actually told Ilya about any of his allergies until it becomes immediately relevant five days into being at his cottage together.

    (how ilya learns about shane's food allergies) (and how shane learns what it's like to have someone who always saves him a seat at the table) (and who also makes sure there's food he can eat on the table to start with)

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Shane suddenly remembered that Lisa was a doctor at a children’s hospital. He had a sinking feeling that it couldn’t be a good sign that she was talking to him using what he suspected was her doctor voice.

    “It’s just a bad stomachache,” Shane told her.

    He opened his mouth again to tell her that he’d had worse, but closed it when he realized that actually, that definitely wasn't true. He hadn’t ever felt anything like this. In fact, he was starting to think that breaking his collarbone again would be preferable to his current situation.

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    Or, Shane's appendix is a bitch.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Jaw Man flicked his middle finger up at Ilya, who didn’t seem to mind, and gestured towards Shane and Hayden with raised eyebrows. “The f*** are you even doing right now, man.”

    Ilya said briefly, “Orgy.”

    “Uh,” said Shane, “no, that’s not—”

    Ilya grinned at him. It was a mean-edged grin but something about it seemed to suggest that he was joking with Shane, rather than about him. “Oh, he speaks.”

    “We’re not here for an orgy,” Shane said to Jaw Man. “We’re missionaries with the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.”

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    30 Jun 2026

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    30 Jun 2026

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    What if, instead of saying Ilya’s name in Boston, Shane says the truth?

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    Shane says 'i love you' when Ilya makes him a tuna melt and neither of them is ready for what comes after.

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    26 Jun 2026

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