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    Shane's first mistake was going to talk to Ilya Rozanov before their game. His second was immediately, stupidly, meeting the eyes of Rozanov’s very much dead mother hovering at his side.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    Cute angst

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    Shane calls a phone sex hotline and gets Ilya crooning unspeakable filth in his ear. It kind of devolves from there.

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    Ilya is a college student in Boston working on the side as a phone sex operator, Shane is still a hockey player. They have toe-curling, back-cracking dirty phone sex and end up catching feelings along the way.

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    31 May 2026

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    Very cute

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    In which the 2019-20 season gets cancelled because of a labour dispute between the MLH and the Player’s association. Shane can’t live without hockey, and Ilya can’t live without Shane - so they sign for a team in Switzerland’s National League, hoping for some more privacy and more time together.

    Instead, they find a team, a city and a kind of freedom they have never had before. Which makes it just that much harder to leave it all behind again.

    *Now complete with a Bonus POV-chapter at the end!*

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    25 May 2026

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    Very wholesome, very cute. Only good vibes.

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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    22 May 2026

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    Writing reference. ANGST AND YEARNING OMG MY HEART IS BLEEDING

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    “What? Hollander too scared to face me?” Ilya chirps, because if he goes another minute without at least mentioning the man that has been consuming his every thought for two weeks he might go insane. He needs someone else to acknowledge his existence, his absence, to fucking tell him what’s going on so he can finally get it off his mind. It’s just a stupid mystery. That’s why it bugs him.

    And then Hayden Pike looks up. Dark bruised circles under his eyes, face pale like a sheet, eyes red rimmed and puffy like he has been crying all day. The face of a man mourning.

    Ilya feels like the ice might crack under him. Something’s wrong with Shane.

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    Set pre-Tuna melt: something has happened to Shane Hollander, but of course no one is telling his life long rival what happened.

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    16 May 2026

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    Very drama. Very good.