Archive of Our Own

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The funeral is on a Tuesday, which feels wrong. Pine had always hated Tuesdays.

Pete stands at the edge of it in his only good shirt, the one that pulls across the shoulders because he'd been fourteen when his grandmother bought it and his father had kept feeding him protein and pushing him into the ring until his body decided it had opinions about the matter. The collar sits stiff against his neck. He doesn't touch it. He learned young not to fidget at things that can't be fixed.

There aren't many people. A few men from the gym, thick-necked and uncomfortable in civilian clothes, who shake Pete's hand without meeting his eyes. A neighbor who had brought soup sometimes, back when Yaai still lived in the house on Soi 9, who cries more than Pete thinks the situation warrants. A monk who didn't know Pine and is kind enough not to pretend otherwise. Pete watches the smoke rise and thinks about nothing in particular and waits for something to arrive in his chest — grief, relief, anything with a name — and when nothing does, he decides that's fine. There will be time for it later. There is always later.

Except there isn't, quite, because Chan finds him before the ashes have fully cooled.

He is not what Pete expects. The strange men he'd seen in passing as his father dragged him through shady venues in the dark corners of the province, who he had known to belong to this obscure rich family from the capital, were usually large and loud — built to occupy space, to remind you of it. Chan is neither. He is neat and precise and he looks at Pete the way Pete has been looked at in gyms his whole life, that specific inventory-taking, and Pete straightens instinctively before he can decide whether he wants to.

You're Pine's boy, Chan says. Not a question.

Khrap.

Chan looks at him for a long moment. The remaining mourners move around them like water around two stones. Pete holds still under the assessment and doesn't perform anything, which he will later understand was the thing that decided it.

How old are you?

Seventeen, Khun.

Another pause. Chan's eyes move to Pete's hands, which are wrapped from habit, the white cotton slightly grey with age. Pete had unwrapped them for the funeral and then wrapped them again after because his hands felt wrong without the pressure.

Your grandmother, Chan says. She's at Baan Suk Jai.

Something moves behind Pete's sternum. He keeps his face still. Khrap.

The bills are three months behind.

Pete says nothing. There is nothing to say. Pine had put Yaai in the facility eighteen months ago with the particular logic of a man who could not tolerate being inconvenienced by someone else's frailty, and had then proceeded to be inconsistent about paying for it, and had then proceeded to die, leaving the inconsistency as Pete's inheritance along with a gym bag of worn equipment and a body that knew forty-seven ways to hurt someone.

I have a proposition, Chan says.

The proposition is this: there is a boy in the Theerapanyakul Minor Family compound who requires supervision. The family has been looking for someone suitable, someone young enough not to startle him, resilient enough to withstand him, and serious enough to be trusted with him. Chan had been keeping an ear out for candidates among the lower ranks of the bodyguard pool. He had not expected to find one at a funeral on a Tuesday, standing in a too-small shirt with wrapped hands, waiting for grief that wasn't coming.

In exchange: Yaai's outstanding balance, cleared. A nurse, part-time, to come to Soi 9 three times a week once Pete has arranged the move back. A salary that makes Pete blink once, carefully, before he reassembles his expression.

There is a period of training, brief and practical — less about teaching Pete things he doesn't know and more about teaching him the specific grammar of the Minor Family household. How to address people. What not to ask about. The particular topography of a world organized around money so old it had stopped needing to announce itself. Pete absorbs it the way he absorbs combinations in the ring: quietly, completely, filling the shape of it into his muscle memory until it stops feeling foreign.

Chan watches him throughout with that same assessing look and says very little, which Pete respects.

On the last day before he is to be brought to the compound, Chan pauses as Pete is gathering his things.

The boy is difficult, he says, which Pete has gathered. His father finds him— A pause, brief and deliberate. —trying. The staff have learned to manage at a distance.

Khrap, Pete says.

You won't be managing at a distance. Chan straightens his cuffs. This will require a different approach.

Pete thinks about Yaai, who had a different approach for everything — who could coax Pine into something resembling a human being on his worst days with a bowl of soup and three sentences, who had held Pete's wrapped hands in hers after bad nights in the ring and said nothing at all, which was always exactly right. Pete thinks about what it takes to hold still in front of something coming at you and not flinch and not step back and not perform the flinch either, just be there, solid, taking up the space you were given.

I understand, Khun, Pete says.

He's not sure he does yet. But he will learn.

The compound is bigger than Pete expected, which is saying something, because he had expected big.

He arrives in the early evening, the light going gold and flat across the grounds, and is shown to his quarters by a staff member who smiles at him with her mouth and not her eyes and tells him dinner is at seven and that Khun Vegas takes his meals in his room. Pete nods. He sets his bag down on the narrow bed — his own room, which he is not used to, which feels almost obscenely private — and sits for a moment with his hands on his knees.

He calls Yaai from the phone Chan has given him. She sounds well. She has been teaching the woman in the next room to play rummy and has strong opinions about the woman's technique. Pete listens and makes the right noises and when she asks how he is he says good, Yaai, I'm good and she says you sound tired and he says I'm okay and she says eat something and he says I will and they say goodbye and Pete sits in the silence afterward and breathes.

Then he gets up, because there is no use in sitting.

The staff give him a tour the next morning — grounds, kitchen, the specific protocols for various situations, the names and ranks of the people he'll be working alongside. Everyone is polite. No one is warm. Pete files this away too, the texture of a household that has learned to be careful.

He notices the door at the end of the east corridor on his own.

No one mentions it. That is itself a kind of mentioning. The staff move through that part of the house with a specific quality of efficiency, eyes forward, pace steady, the practiced navigation of people who have learned not to be in the wrong place when the weather turns. Pete stands at the end of the corridor for a moment after the tour has moved on and looks at the door — ordinary, closed, no different from any other — and listens.

Nothing. Silence with a particular density to it.

Pete turns and follows the others.

He thinks about the funeral on Tuesday — the smoke, the too-small shirt, the grief that didn't come. He thinks about Pine hating Tuesdays, which had always struck him as a strange thing to hate, a day like any other day, until Pete had started to notice that Tuesdays did seem to have a particular quality to them. A rearranging quality. A this is your life now quality.

He arrived here on a Tuesday.

Alright, he thinks. Alright.