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hey johnny! now you have my number :)
just wanted to say it was really nice meeting you the other night. and your interesting "mates" lol. now i can check scotland off my list. if you're ever back in town, let's catch a drink
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CONFIRM
STOP
oops wrong thread sry!!
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hey i know your job keeps you busy from what you were saying, but a courtesy text would've been nice lmao. or maybe you're literally not getting these because you sent me to a dead numberrrr which i'm just realizing now as i type this. anywayyyyyy
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oh fuck. i feel crazy even typing this, but jamie just told me. it happened a month ago wtf??? i've been sending messages to a fucking dead person. i slept with a person who is now DEAD. i need to go lie tf down
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ok, so hear me out: my therapist (a real actual normal person!) told me i seem to be having a hard time processing that i fucked a dude who died like two wks later. and that it could be v helpful for me to process by texting his phone number. which i'm p sure is literally a not real number.
if you're a person receiving these texts, pls block me asap and if you don't, that's your fault!!
if you are johnny's family, i'm so deeply sorry for your loss. my condolences, and i request you block my number immediately.
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most people called you soap. i still don't know why, but to me, you're just johnny. i guess i'm free to just tell you what i think now that i don't have anything to lose. i hated your hair LOL. you asked me what i thought and i lied to your face. your eyes freaked me out too, like a husky staring at me.
also you didn't really make me come - i mean it was lots of fun obviously, but at my age i'm realizing i have less patience for young bucks.
full confession is that i smoked before writing to you today so i think i'm probably gonna regret this. i am fully insulting a dead man. ok bye
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also i caught you looking at your own dick a LOT.
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i got high and masturbated today and when i was coming, YOU WENT THROUGH MY MIND! yuck!!! i think i need a new therapist.
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look a normal text: here's some pretty flowers i passed today on my way to work. this house always has the most beautiful garden by the sidewalk, so i like to see what's in bloom every few weeks. there's always a little something different. i asked the owner when i saw him, and he said these are: achillea millefollium, penstemon digitalis (husker red), and some russian sage in the back. i wrote all the names down so i wouldn't forget
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i dont think you would give a fuck about flowers lol.
maybe you'd be nice about it to get laid or make someone smile though
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it's been a weird start to the summer to say the least and i'm switching to a real diary like a normal person. i think you've always been a nice little blank canvas for me to project all my shit
whether it was horniness and not wanting to feel old in a bar, and then to work through my feelings on death (i guess i have a lot).
soooo thanks. hope you're at peace wherever you ended up.
i'm gonna block your number now so i'm not tempted to text it when i have stupid thoughts
don't do that
keep going
i saw you typing
who the fuck is this
simon
soap was my mate
oh my god. i didn't think his phone would be on anymore. i'm so sorry
it's not his phone you're texting
sorry??? i don't understand
its my number you've got
i literally cannot figure out how that would be the case. it's not like i've ever changed johnnys number in my phone?? you can't just reassign his number to yours or something
no
what do you mean no??
you've been texting me this whole time
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come back
no
why not
how tf do you need that explained to you
i just dont see why you need to stop typing
because i don't know you??
didn't know soap either
because he was your friend, i'm gonna be as respectful as i possibly can. that's a low blow. i cant wrap my head around the fact that you have been reading everything ive written to someone else
i THOUGHT i was typing to a person who'd given me his number to do
if it makes you feel better he did this a lot with birds
you are literally not understanding at all what might make a person feel better about this situation. and what did he do a lot of exactly?
hand out my number to cute birds as a laugh
especially the ones he knew i thought were cute
ok well….then you're both fuckin weird. you should've deleted my number!
probably
NO.
NOT PROBABLY.
DEFINITELY.
i can picture you fumin mad ha
you've never even seen me
yeah when we met that night
nope never met a simon
sure you did. he wouldve introduced me as ghost or riley tho
ok that makes sense actually
why
bc you were a fuckin weirdo then and a fucking weirdo now!! you hid in the back and stared at us the whole night
why are you embarrassed
i'm not embarrassed. i'm MAD.
nah
YES
nah youre just embarrassed. is it cause you said you had a wank about a dead bloke
fuck off
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wanna get a drink
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he was too young for you anyhow. you're too good a woman, he wouldnt know what to do even if he had you
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it was nothin personal you know
this is the most personal thing anything could possibly be
jesus youre dramatic
bye
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i just meant he was a good lad but he was young
didnt know half of what was good for him
he didnt like to share so he'd make a game of it all no matter who was on the other end of things
like me
like you
but you still read everything i wrote
i did
you had every opportunity to tell me
or just block me to save my dignity
why would i do that
to save my dignity
i liked hearin what you wrote
i insulted your friend
so
it made me laugh
what part
the husky eyes
they took some gettin used to
i am sorry about your friend
what did you mean when you say he didn't like to share?
whenever wed go out right
you had to call em
oh gross
not gross just a way of it to be fair and clear with your mates
so what, did he call dibs on every girl in the bar that night?
no
just one
he saw what i liked and then called it