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    The house where his mother killed herself is nothing but a pile of ash. It should satisfy him, maybe, that the building that was once her prison is gone. It was his prison too, for years. But something about the way the charred brick has crumbled in on itself makes him feel empty.

    Suddenly, Ilya Rozanov is a single parent to his orphaned niece. Suddenly, he has a whole lot more to lose.
    The only way to keep his love safe, is to keep it secret.
    (Its not like he doesn't have enough of those already)

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Good riddance, he thinks. Or maybe feels obligated to think. He’s not sure. It feels like a natural thing to think about a brother who hit you and insulted you and extorted you for most of your short, miserable time together. He’s thought about it before, Alexei dying. The life he lived had not been conductive to longevity.

    I am the last Rozanov, he thinks, and that is an emotion he can parse, finally: closure. Like setting the last piece down in a puzzle.

    It’s only after the first puff of smoke escapes his lips that Ilya remembers Alexei’s daughter.

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    Two years after he gets married, Ilya Rozanov receives the news that his older brother has died.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    The first thing that people notice when they look at Ilya is the way that the word disappointment carves itself in jagged, angry letters along his jawline. This is not the worst mark he bears—it’s just the most visible.

    (In which the most hurtful things your soulmate has thought about themself appear as words cut into your body. Shane and Ilya find reasons to love each other anyway.)

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    17 Jun 2026

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    “You remember the awards in Vegas, yes?” Shane blushes again. “You asked how my English got so good. I said I read the New Yorker,” He pauses to elbow David gently, “Which is how I learned is your favorite!” David chuckles at him as Shane rolls his eyes. “I also wanted to go to American university to improve my English. At least I would know I am not just stupid Russian brute the media portrayed me as. I would know for myself that I am smart, now in two languages!” He grins proudly around the table, Yuna’s face reflecting her shame at the reminder that she, and everyone else, had horribly misjudged him for so long.

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    Ilya casually sends out a calendar invite to a random Monday in October. Shane and his family discover it's for his graduation ceremony where they are surprised to learn that Ilya has earned his doctorate after studying for the last four years.

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    16 Jun 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 191

    Mystery Work

    Part of Unreveal Me
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    16 Jun 2026

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    Life feels so chaotic for Shane sometimes, with all the loud noises and the unwritten rules he’s expected to follow, even though no one ever taught them to him. It’s why the bookstore feels more like home to him than anywhere else in Boston. It doesn’t ask Shane to be anything other than himself. Doesn’t ask for any more than he can give.

    He can just exist here.

    Shane likes slow, likes taking his time. And Ilya - without saying or doing anything in particular - makes Shane feel like that’s okay. Like he isn’t doing anything wrong by standing still sometimes.

    (Or, Shane works in a bookstore, Ilya plays hockey, and they both go to the same college. They fall in love in every universe.)

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Or, Five Times Ilya and David Met in Boston and One Time They Met in Canada

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    That one fic where David platonically nerd-seduces Ilya into becoming his son without any input from Shane.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Ilya wants forever with Shane. He wants a future, and everything that comes with it. And he would be willing to anything to get that... Anything.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    “Okay, give me five minutes. This patient will not take long.”

    Luca nods in thanks and scurries off to busy himself in the meantime. Ilya huffs another sigh, shaking his head as he finally pulls up the digital chart.

    Shane Hollander
    Age: 27
    Height: 177.8cm
    Weight: 88.5Kg
    Temp: 36.6
    BP: 118/75

    -Patient presented with syncope, nausea and vertigo.

     

    -shane hollander comes into ilya rozanov's ER, two months after they had a wild one-night stand)

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    05 Jun 2026

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    05 Jun 2026

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    Five times Shane was quietly hot for Ilya's huge... brain, and one time everyone knew.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    "Well how do we switch back?" Hayden breaks the silence.

    "How should I know. This is real life, not fabulous Lindsay Lohan film."

    Hayden rubs at his temple, only Rozanov would be cracking jokes at a time like this. He would much rather be in Jamie Lee Curtis's body right now.

    "Okay then, like, we should set up some ground rules right? And teach each other things so we can trade places without people catching onto something."

    "Pike, as soon as you play hockey people will know something is wrong with me."

    "Yeah and as soon as I walk around acting like an insufferable jackass people will know something is wrong with me."

    "Insufferable jackass who grew talent overnight."

    Hayden wishes he took Shane up on his offer to start meditating with him.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    03 Jun 2026

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    ej and jo's collabs! these fics are all unconnected and can be read on their own :)

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    02 Jun 2026

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    For some reason, everyone has a terrible first impression of Ilya Rozanov. Many have an outlandish hatred of him, distrust him, or think he's a terrible fit for Shane Hollander in one way or another. They see him as the villain in Shane's love story, regardless of Shane's many objections to the contrary.

    Unfortunately for them, they couldn't be more wrong about Ilya, and each and every one of them is going to slowly come to realize what a good man he is, firsthand, as Ilya worms his way into their hearts and minds.

    Or, the 5 times where the cast of Game Changers finally realized Ilya Rozanov was a great man, and the 1 time Ilya Rozanov finally got the first impression he deserved.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.

    Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.

    So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.

    After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    30 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    28 May 2026

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    27 May 2026

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