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    when the sun hits by

    Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)

    30 Jun 2026

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    15 Jul 2026

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    I knew you'd haunt all of my what ifs by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    22 Jun 2026

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    Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.

    But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.

    Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.

    Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?

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    04 Jul 2026

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    To my dearest by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    29 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya–” Shane breathed, high and wheezy. “You can’t– You can’t leave me! Please, God, please, don’t take him. Please, please, I can’t lose– I can’t–”

    A blaring alarm yanked him out of his panic like a fish out of water. He shot upright, flailing his limbs that were caught in something soft. Blurred splashes of colour steadily painted a picture of a bedroom he’d recognise anywhere. It was brighter now, light pouring in through partially shut curtains. His breath was heavy and he struggled making sense of how the hell he’d ended up in bed when just a moment ago, Ilya had–

    “Hollander.” Ilya slurred, narrowing his eyes at him. “Turn that thing off.”

     

    Or, Shane is stuck in a time loop that resets whenever his fiancé dies.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    A Soul for Sale by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    25 Jan 2026

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    “I’m sorry to hear that it has been getting worse, Ilya,” Galina said, a line between her brows. “Do you think something has…triggered your depressive feelings to get worse?”

    Ilya had wondered the same, had tried to track down the exact moment his brain had decided to slowly suffocate him to death, but he had no answer. It was like the question of which came first: the chicken or the egg. He didn’t know which came first; his depression or simply his awareness of it.

    He felt as if he had always had it—he just didn’t recognize it for what it was until he became aware of its name through the Irina Foundation’s work.

    “Isn’t it just genetic?” Ilya asked. “The trigger was my birth, I think.”

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Caught by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    25 May 2026

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    Ilya's depression medication wasn't working. Again.

    Ilya thought were only three options for him. If he was being completely objective, three options. He could continue on as is. He could die. Or he could confess his feelings and detonate a bomb onto his entire life.

    Every day Ilya kept picking the first option. Sometimes he chose it multiple times a day. Multiple times a night. He would continue on. He would. He didn’t have any other choices. Unless he died like his mother.

    Ilya was caught.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    strange days are here again by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    25 Feb 2026

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    Ilya rubbed at his face with both hands, trying to knead the heaviness away. It didn’t budge.

    Probably just caught something from the kids, he thought to himself. Some kind of virus.

    Except he'd been feeling like this for weeks now. Maybe longer. It was hard to tell. The days blurred when you were tired, and he’d been tired for longer than he wanted to admit.

    Maybe it was something still lingering in his system. That happened sometimes, right? Viruses could hang around. He'd read that somewhere. Post-viral fatigue.

    Yeah. That was probably it.

    Some dormant virus still working its way out of him.

    Or,

    Ilya and Shane are married with kids, living the life they fought for. But Ilya's depression is rearing its ugly head again.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    The Great Pretender by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    02 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.

    The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.

    Or:
    Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
    Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Not the same by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    14 Jun 2026

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    Ilya thought playing on the same team as Shane would mean chirping, showing off, and maybe winning a Cup together.

    He did not expect it to mean having to tell Shane, as his captain, that the way he talks to their rookie is hurting the team.

    Shane takes this extremely literally. Ilya takes it extremely personally.

    Or: one difficult conversation, two very different brains, and two husbands trying very hard to take care of each other.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    I Keep You Safe by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    16 Apr 2026

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    How did he let this happen?

    Shane's not sure.

    One moment, he was on the gym floor not staring at Rozanov's gorgeous sweaty body. Then Shane was standing up, but his legs were weak for some god forsaken reason and Rozanov was there, just an arm around his waist to keep him upright, and now...

    Well.

    Now Shane's on his knees on the floor of Ilya Rozanov's shower.

     

    Or

    Heated Rivalry, but the boys are forced to have an honest conversation around 8 years earlier than they do in canon.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Staring at the Sun by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    20 May 2026

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Not Alone by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    09 Jun 2026

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    Shane decided it was time to call in reinforcements. Ilya’s depression wasn’t a secret anymore. It had taken time but slowly he opened up to the team, and eventually the public, about his mental health struggles. It was important to him to fight the stigma, to show that everyone needed help sometimes, to talk openly about going to therapy and taking medications. Shane was so proud of him. It was a long road to get where they were, both Ilya and Shane struggled, but they were doing their best. They were on a team that supported them unconditionally and loved each other like family.

    That’s why he called Harris.

    Or: Shane is away in the States to do brand shoots and it happens to coincide with the worst depressive episode has had in years. Thousands on miles away and feeling powerless, Shane does the only thing he can think of: call the Centaurs to check on Ilya. What follows is a week of Shane and Ilya's front door revolving as the Cens come through in the only way they know how; with unconditional love and support.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    bro code by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    08 Apr 2026

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    Marleau has no clue how to help Roz, but when he sees him struggling after his Montreal girl dumps him, he knows he’s going to have to figure it out. Whether Roz wants him to or not.

    ~

    Ilya very much does not want to be helped right now, but thankfully for Ilya, Cliff is not asking his opinion on the matter.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    5 times when Shane realized how smart Ilya is + 1 time when the world did too by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    23 May 2026

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    Everybody thinks hockey players are stupid. Having an accent certainly doesn’t help.

    Ilya Rozanov never bothered correcting people, but it wasn’t his job to fit their expectations either.
    He wasn’t hiding it, it just wasn’t important, and he wasn’t the type to show off (oh, Shane would laugh at that, but for this specific aspect it was true).

    It just never came up. Until it did.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    A Phone Call Away by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    15 May 2026

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    “Oh, fuck you. Sorry I still want to win cups instead of smoking weed with my teammates between losses,” Shane argued.

    The words seemed to drain the rest of the fight out of Ilya. He didn’t know what he was doing anymore, what they were fighting about anymore. All he knew was that it felt like the fears he’d spent the last few months convincing himself were unfounded were unfolding in front of him in real time.

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    A look at how Ilya struggled with his move to Ottawa and an alternate ending to the Boxing Day fight.

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    22 May 2026

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    I Will Be Better In the Morning by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    21 May 2026

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    Please take the tags seriously. This is a pretty indepth fic when it comes to some of the more triggering topic.

    Ilya has bad days. Or maybe bad days have Ilya.
    And when bad days strike, there's the dreaded Safety Plan. The thing he is determined not to need.
    Until he does.

    Or: Shane Hollander is determined to make depression his bitch. Weapon of choice? Unconditional love.

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    22 May 2026

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    These Little Wonders by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    14 May 2026

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    In the beginning, suggesting Ilya move to Ottawa seemed to be a bridge over a previously unpassable body of water. It felt like a lifeline, a breath of air after drowning for years upon years. Maybe it was, at first. Shane got to have it all, everything he wanted. But despite his willingness to go along with whatever Shane wants, he can tell it’s been weighing on Ilya. He’d given up everything, and Shane can feel how lonely he is. He can see his bright eyes dimming, his laugh growing hollow; he’s withering away while Shane is emptying everything he has into a sport that can never love him back the way Ilya does.
    _
    Two years after Ilya moves to Ottawa, Shane decides he's worth more than anything Montreal can give him. He won't let Ilya be the only one who makes sacrifices for their relationship. But he doesn't know that Ilya has been struggling, secretly and in silence. And now the only question is if Shane is too late.
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    An alternative version of Shane changing teams and deciding to move to Ottawa willingly, on his own accord, without being outed. He and Ilya are honest with each other - but not before a bit of angst ensues.
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    NO AI USED ~ FUCK AI

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    16 May 2026

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    Oh no I've said too much, I haven't said enough by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    29 Apr 2026

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    Ilya sits down carefully and takes Shane’s hand. “I am going to ask you something, and I want you to try not to freak out, okay? Take a breath, think about it.”
    That sounds… serious.
    “The Centaurs are having a barbeque,” Ilya says. “I would like to go, and I would like you to come with me.”

    Shane meets the Centaurs. As Ilya's close personal friend slash charity partner from Canada.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    Grady v. Rozanov by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    10 Feb 2026

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    “Mm, not stuff his pockets with the drug everyone thinks makes you gay right before a press conference? Maybe!” Ilya’s voice chimed happily from the phone.

    “You wanna tell us why you’re so acquainted with Rush that you can identify it in 780p, Ilya?” Kip asked.

    “…I have so much leather to deodorize, Kip Grady. So many sports cars, you know.”

    --

    Kip can't believe no one else can tell how outrageously gay Ilya Rozanov is, but he's not complaining, he's happy to have someone else to talk to at all the hockey functions.

    Or: Perfect gaydar haver Ilya Rozanov finally gets a taste of his own medicine. A series of looks into Kip and Ilya's friendship, starting after the cottage.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    i will choose you by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    28 Apr 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane whispers against Ilya’s hair. “I’m so, so sorry. I didn’t—”

    Shane cuts himself off with a faint stutter in his breath that Ilya feels in his own chest.

    “Please,” Ilya begs, but he isn’t sure what he is even asking for.

    He wants Shane to leave. He wants Shane to stay. He wants Shane to hold him and never let go.

    Ilya feels Shane’s fingers fist in his curls, holding tight as if Ilya could ever bring himself to pull away.

    Shane doesn’t know that Ilya could never, that he cannot fathom turning his back to take even one step away from him.

    All he can do is push Shane away, make him walk first, and pick up the pieces left behind.

     

    Or an alternative to that fight from the long game, but instead of Shane leaving as Ilya asks, they actually talk it out

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    27 Apr 2026

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    i was raised out in the cold (i was raised on little light) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    14 Apr 2026

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    No one would believe it now, but Ilya Rozanov was a shy kid, prone to tears. Small for his age. An easy target.

    After his mother’s death, he threw himself into hockey. He hit a growth spurt. He started lifting weights, became big and strong. Not as big and strong as his older brother, but big enough to make Alexei and the other bullies think twice. Strong enough to fight back.

    (Or: Five times Ilya has to go home to Russia, and one time he chooses to go home to Shane.)
     


    This isn’t what Ilya had in mind when he figured they’d be spending most of their time at the cottage in bed.

    He throws his arm over his eyes and groans. “I am ruining our time together. I am ruining your time off.”

    “No you’re not,” Shane says. “Are you kidding me? I’ve basically been fantasizing about this.”

    Ilya lowers his arm. “About me puking all over your favorite place on earth?”

    “No, you asshole. About taking care of you.”

    Ilya stares at him.

    Shane says, defensively, “What?”

    “I fantasize about you fucking yourself on boring beige dildo,” Ilya says, voice cracking, “and you fantasize about me being sick at your cottage so you can take care of me?”

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    27 Apr 2026

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