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    “Uh,” he says, looking up from his screen and feeling his ears go hot, realizing for the first time that this habit of his hasn’t actually come up before until this exact moment.

    “What?” Rozanov asks, sounding more amused than anything else. “You are one of the people who does Instagram for food now?”

    “No,” Shane says, stalling between answering and finishing his Snap so he can send it to Melissa, “one sec.” He finishes typing out 'Tuna melt. Chips. Pickles. It smells really good. Swiss cheese, I think.' before he looks back to Rozanov, putting his phone facedown on the coffee table. “Just sending it to someone on the staff. She likes knowing what I’m eating.”

    He doesn’t know if Melissa likes knowing what he’s eating, per se, but she also seems pleased when he talks about enjoying food for things beyond how many grams of protein it has in it.

    “Ah,” Rozanov says, in a tone Shane can’t quite read. “You always send her your food then, this girl?”

    (shane has a habit of sending his team's dietician his meals for approval) (the problem with this habit? he forgets to tell ilya exactly what it is that melissa does) (how the tuna meltdown is AVERTED through the power of miscommunication)

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    02 Jul 2026

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    PenAndInkPrincess
    Shallergies fic

    Ilyas one sided rivalry with shanes dietitian, Melissa, and how his jealousy about shanes relationship with her kicks him into being more upfront about what he wants in his relationship witu shane.
    Poor Melissa is a gem and cheering for them on the sidelines lol.

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    Finally, something dawns on him, a way to handle two goals simultaneously. He’d seen Hollander’s mother flipping through papers rapidly when they first got here, seeming calm and in control and more than a little frightening in a way that made Ilya mildly glad he wasn’t one of the people responsible for a clipboard. If anyone can tell him if the long list of “Prohibited Items” he’d been sent in his email a few days ago is just standard practice for big shoots, it would be Yuna Hollander.

    Or, hopefully, her son.

    “Crazy we cannot even have peanut butter, eh?” He asks. “You also got giant list?”

    Hollander stiffens, almost imperceptibly, and Ilya tilts his head, just slightly, confused, wondering if he’s stumbled somewhere unexpected.

    (how ilya learns about shane's allergies) (and shane's sexual awakening tragically hits a speedbump in the process 😔)

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    02 Jul 2026

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    hit or miss
    PenAndInkPrincess

    Shallergies. Ilya learns about shanes allergies at the ccm shoot after ilya kisses him and sets off a reaction. This sets off more of a friendly competitors narrative and they get to be publicly friends (doesnt help their communication much though)

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    Shane knows his mother would love him if he left the Metros, but he also knows that he could never give her a reason good enough for him to do so. She'd have an excuse, have a reason, have a way to make any event be something he could handle or deal with. They could probably make him commit murder, and she'd brush it off, let alone if Shane finally got tired of the weirdly racist and definitely homophobic comments that got made daily.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    the accumulation of dreams
    hishn_greywalker

    Shane and ilya plan a life in a boston brownstone. Yuna and david dont get looped in bc shane knows yuna would try to control his choices.

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    Shane Hollander ✅ @shanehollanderofficial 
    I’ve seen many publications over the years speculating on my own, and my husband’s, hockey stats and accolades in relation to our romantic relationship and when the public assumes it started. 

    We don’t owe this to anyone. But we’ve also been playing professional hockey for seventeen years and we’ve both run out of ahem, cares to give.

    On the right is a photograph from the behind the scenes of our joint CCM advertisement in July of 2010. This photo predates the hundreds of combined accomplishments listed on the left. 

    Oh, and it was also taken about six hours before our first kiss. 

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    or; a year from retirement and out of fucks to give, shane reveals their timeline to twitter in response to the latest speculatory article on their relationship. hollanovs across the world rejoice, centaurs celebrate their beloved dads, and former teammates share the not-so-subtle clues they missed the first time.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    do the math
    diazette

    After retiring shane drops the timeline bomb on social media

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    What if Ilya has a panic attack in the locker room after getting the news of his father's death after the Winter 2017 Montreal @ Boston game and no one can figure out what is going on? What if, while scrambling for answers, Cliff Marleau has the brilliant idea to call Jane?

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    What if Shane and Ilya's deeper emotional connection begins just before Ilya leaves for his father's funeral in Russia instead of on a phone call while they are separated by oceans?

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    24 Jun 2026

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    i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
    FluentBird81

    A couple of the raiders call jane after ilya gets the call about his father dying and goes catatonic.

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    “No vodka?” Rozanov asks, tsking in disapproval but looking amused. “What then? What does the great Shane Hollander want when he does a good job? What is your vice, Hollander?”

    “Hmmmm, mangoes,” Shane sighs out wistfully. It’s not a dangerous allergy for him, but it does mean being itchy and sometimes a little queasy for a couple of days after. Really he knows that he should probably avoid them altogether, but with every other restriction he has and with how controlled he is with his life even outside of that, it’s his one little indulgence, a pressure-relief valve of one bad choice to let some steam off at the end of a season, when he carves out time in his cottage when he can make his annual bad choice and enjoy a few days of wild mango madness before he makes himself buckle back into the restraints he usually keeps his life in.

    He looks up when he hears Rozanov snort.

    “Mangoes?” Rozanov repeats, tugging his shirt over his head. “Really?”

    “They’re good,” Shane defends. “Better than vodka,” he adds, pointedly.

    (shane has food allergies but makes an exception for mangoes) (5 times ilya didn't find out about this allergy and 1 time he did)

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    23 Jun 2026

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    my moon my man(go)
    PenAndInkPrincess

    Another shane allergy fic where along with all some severe food allergies, he's also mildly allergic to mango. He loves mango though and a slip up leads to ilya gifting him mangos after sex. Ilya is no amused once he finds out that Shane's been using him to cheat on his allergy this entire time

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    “It’s okay. I don’t need anything.” 

    “I am not going to eat in front of you while you have nothing, Hollander,” Ilya scoffs. He plucks a can of cold ginger ale from the top shelf as casually as he can manage and slides it over the island, interrupting Hollander’s fidgeting thumbs. “You must be hungry, yes? It’s been hours since you left hotel. I can make something. Easy.” 

    “Make… what?” he asks warily.  

    Ilya rolls his eyes and tosses a look over his shoulder. “Do not worry. I will find something that works for your special hockey diet,” he teases. He reaches back into the fridge. “Tuna melt okay?” 

    “No,” Hollander says primly. “And it’s a disease. Not a diet.” 

    He pulls his hands out of the cold and turns, blinks. “What?” 

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    23 Jun 2026

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    the way to his heart
    anincompletelist (soldouthaz)

    Shane is celiac, ilya adapts. Really sweet scene where shane gets sick and ilya comes over after a boston Montréal game to take care of him. Also david trying to feed ilya pasta with gluten to sus out their relationahip is a wild move on his part. Like ok david.

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    “Are you… are you saying that you want to be in a relationship with Shane Hollander?” The room held a sort of tension, like everyone in it was holding their breath, waiting for Ilya to vehemently deny it.

    The reporter had taken his words in the complete opposite way than Ilya had meant them, but he supposed he was too committed to stop now. “Of course not.”

    “Of course.” The reporter parroted, laughing nervously.

    “Obviously, we are already in a relationship.”

    In Ilya’s rookie season, he impulsively jokes about dating Shane to an invasive reporter. Then, he just… keeps doing it, since publicly announcing it enough times that everyone writes it off as a joke is a great way to hide a clandestine relationship.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov's Guide to Reinforcing the Closet
    pink_starfish

    Ilya has a running joke with the media that hes dating shane that no one takes seriously. This works great as a smoke screen until they actually try to come out. Shout out to the centaurs that try to have an intervention when ilya sends out their wedding invites

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    It does mean missing out on things like barbeques and team dinners sometimes, but it’s not as if he would have been able to participate anyway. At this point in his life, risking someone not taking his allergies seriously would mean potentially missing games, which makes it unacceptable. Jackie always makes sure he has a dish or two that’s safe when he’s over at their house, but if he was going to be the one guy sitting and drinking ginger ale instead of taking part in sharing nachos or Korean barbeque or burgers or any other delicious thing he goes in knowing he can’t have anyway, there’s no point in making a fuss about it. He eats at home, has a drink with everyone else, and he calls it a day. Easy. Safe. Foolproof.

    But also the reason it doesn’t occur to him that he hasn’t actually told Ilya about any of his allergies until it becomes immediately relevant five days into being at his cottage together.

    (how ilya learns about shane's food allergies) (and how shane learns what it's like to have someone who always saves him a seat at the table) (and who also makes sure there's food he can eat on the table to start with)

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    22 Jun 2026

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    adrenergic
    PenAndInkPrincess

    Shane getting to feel known and cared for in how ilya responds to learning he has severe allergies.

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    “Go?” Rozanov repeats, and Shane thinks he manages to nod, thinks he manages to spin some kind of excuse that he knows Rozanov doesn’t really buy, but he needs to go. He needs to get out of here. He needs to find somewhere quiet and calm where he can ride out this panic and painful tightness until he can catch his breath again. He needs-

    He needs to go.

    “I’m sorry,” he says, turning heel and resisting the urge to just book it right for the front door only because he’d rather not have to explain to Hayden why he returned from a hookup with Boston Lily in men’s clothes that he certainly didn’t leave in.

    It’s not until he makes it halfway up the stairs to Rozanov’s bedroom that it occurs to him in a cold rush that it isn’t just anxiety that makes it this hard to breathe.

    “No,” he tells himself firmly, white knuckling the bannister and trying to take a deep breath just to prove that he can.

    It wheezes.

    (how the tuna meltdown is averted through the power of food allergies and anaphylaxis)

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    22 Jun 2026

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    biphasic
    PenAndInkPrincess

    Shane has a pretty severe food allergy and doesnt tell ilya about it even when he make him food during the tuna meltdown. Shane having a reaction nips the running out on ilya in the bud and they work things out from there (after ilya has a couple minor freak outs about shane potentially dying and how blase he is about his allergy)

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    Is the first day of the new season and Scott's a bit afraid of how his team will act now that he's out. Unfortunately, he cannot dwell on that because there's a video that Carter just has to show him.

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    Some reporter tries to get Ilya to comment on the Scott Hunter Kiss, he does not get the answer he was looking for.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov breaks his silence on the Scott Hunter Kiss
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    There was a burst of static, a gusty sigh. "Shanushka, you have the biggest 'bottom eyes' I have ever seen."

    "That's not a thing."

    "It is absolutely a thing, and that thing is you," she cackled, and he hung up the phone, ears so hot they should have been smoking.

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    Or, Shane meets Svetlana first, and it changes everything and nothing.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Sea Lion Woman
    originalblue

    Shane meets svetlana before ilya and they become fast friends. She insists shane start learning russian and her support helps shane come out of his shell some and navigate social pressures.
    Featuring a shane thats definitely a little more aware and struggling because of it by not ignoring all the shitty locker room talk. Studying to be a lawyer svetlana (yes go girl). A more public friendship for the boys. And a little Russian rookie that seems to have adopted himself to shane and sneakly moved in.

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    Immediately follows the fight on Boxing Day, where Ilya tells Shane to leave. To please go home.

    After seeking advice from a trusted friend, Shane returns to make things right between them.

    Truths will be revealed, exposing the cracks in their relationship that Shane hasn't seen and Ilya hasn't wanted to reveal; forcing hard conversations and even harder decisions.

    Is love enough to keep them together? If so, what needs to change? Will anything stay the same?

    The biggest question Shane asks himself as they wade through years of miscommunication and hurt is 'Where do we go from here?'

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Where do we go from here?
    Gidgit2u

    Aftermath of the fight. Rose knocks so sense into shane

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    After Shane comes out, the Metros become convinced he might be attracted to them.

    Shane corrects this assumption with devastating precision, accidentally describes Ilya Rozanov in the process, and somehow turns the entire locker room into a deranged pageant of heterosexual insecurity.

    Edit: Additional content added 27/06/2026 in relation to future fic "The Benchmark" 😈

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    19 Jun 2026

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    The Blueprint
    FyrestoneSiren

    Shane comes out to Montreal, they get weird about it for a week. Shane puts them in their place describing how none of them are his type and how theyre all lacking. This kicks off a hilarious reversal where theyre all peacocking trying to get his approval with hayden in the corner just fanning the flames of their bizarre support. Very crack, very hilarious. Poor shane is really suffering being stuck with these shameless buffoons

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    It's Shane Hollander's first season in Ottawa, and the whole Centaurs roster is playing better than they ever have. So why won't the press focus on that? Why do he and Ilya keep having to answer questions about their marriage, and not get to talk about the incredible start to the season that their team is having? Maybe if they do one podcast, with hosts who are normal people, they can just tell their whole story and focus on bringing the Stanley Cup to Ottawa.

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    or, Shane and Ilya do a sports podcast run by lesbians for members of the LGBTQ+ community, and the internet reacts.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    I Laugh Like Me Again
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    The boys talk about their relationship and the timeline on a queer sports podcast

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    It figures that even half-way across the world Ilya's dick manages to ruin Cliff's day. The real surprise is that it isn't the only dick involved in this mess.

    Featuring an ill-timed outing, a supportive but clueless team trying its best, panicking over Russia's LGBTQ laws, too many group chats, an unhinged 3am brainstorming session on how to get your captain a new citizenship (asking for a friend) and Roz' inability to answer his fucking phone.

    Or: Ilya disappears in Sochi. Half-way across the world his team does its best to help. Their best is more than anyone could have foreseen.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Cliff's Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Week (Is Probably Going Better Than Ilya's)
    petroltogo

    Ilya gets outed while in Russia for the Olympics and the bears, vaughn, and scott run a social media disinformation campaign to hide his location to help him escape told from marlows perspective.
    This fic is both hilarious and deeply gut wrenching with marlows panic for his friend and the public doing their best to help obfuscate ilyas escape

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    “You know, there are a lot of kids that look up to you—“

    It’s the refrain of Shane’s life. Everything circles back to this: a lot of kids looking up to you. That’s why you need to spend your summers doing ad campaigns. That’s why you need to let a social media manager handle your every interaction online. That’s why we need to sit here after family dinner with flash cards rehearsing the different ways you’ll answer reporters’ questions after you face Boston next week, and, oh, when we’re done, let’s do some French vocabulary flashcards, too, because it’s important to the Francophone fans that you’re thinking about them. There are lots of Asian Francophones in Quebec, Shane. Almost 13% of primary schoolers are of Asian descent, compared to less than 4% of hockey players. Isn’t that pathetic?

    As if Shane doesn’t know that it’s pathetic. As if Shane doesn’t know what he fought through to get here.

    Abruptly, Shane is furious.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    licked by fire
    Anonymous

    Shane starts to really feel his anger post outing. The feeling of i was so good at the detriment of myself for so many years to please everyone and it didnt even protect me in the end is so gut wrenching. It manifesting in anger is so spot on

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    Shane hates losing control and the last several months-years if he's being honest-have been nothing but him trying to grab onto any choice he can make for himself. In the wake of being outed, exiled from the team he's dedicated his life to, and losing everything he's worked so hard for just because of who he fell in love with, Shane does the only thing he can: he runs until he feels like he's far enough away that he can't hear anyone else's opinions.

    It's time for Shane to make a decision, just once, he wants to choose something for himself.
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    chapter one can be read as a standalone

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    15 Jun 2026

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    it's mine alone to disgrace
    apageinthisbook

    Everything finally hits a breaking point after the outing and staying in the mhl becomes untenable for shane so he runs, starts enforcing boundaries, decides to retire, and considers coaching the womens ottawa team. Ilya works through what could have happened with his therapist, finds shane, and they move forward together

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    What if David and Yuna had both gone to the cottage to retrieve that phone charger? What if they crept in very quietly (because silent meditation retreat) and found their son fast asleep on the couch, snuggled up with his arch-rival, Ilya Rozanov?

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Soft Launch
    DoubleApple

    Yuna and david walk in on the boys napping at the cottage

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    “Unlock the door, Hollander.”

    Even though Shane couldn’t hear the exact words, he knew what Ilya said. He shook his head.

    “Unlock the door, or I will break the glass. Your choice.”

    Shane’s eyes widened again and he briefly hung his head as if regretting all of his past life decisions, and Ilya heard the resounding click of the unlock mechanism.

    He felt wild, his mind in violent turmoil as he threw open the door and his palm clutched the back of Shane’s head, his fingers finding purchase in the coarse hair. “Are you listening to me?” Shane ducked his head in acknowledgment. “I’m going to call off my driver. You will not move. I am going to sit there-“ he pointed at the empty passenger seat. “-in this boring car of yours and I am going to find out why the fuck you are alone and who the fuck made you cry.”

    *************************************************************

    Inspired by Shane’s confession in The Long Game (*mini-spoiler*) about his whereabouts after leaving a certain Montreal nightclub in January 2017, Ilya leaves the club shortly after Shane only to find him pulled over on the side of the road, devastated.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    (All I Need Is On) The Other Side of the Door
    midwestmillie

    After the club during the rose Landry debacle ilya sees shane crying in his car on the side of the road on the way back to his hotel. Ilya cant just leave that alone and they end up talking things out back at shanes apartment

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