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“He doesn’t sleep.” The sentence ripped out of Buck before he could stop it. Tears threatened to spill as he brought his hand up, waving it around like it could solve all his problems. Admitting to his failure made him feel like a monster. “We’ve tried melatonin, tea, extra bedtime stories, exercising— Nothing works. Nothing works and Eddie, I am so fucking tired.”
Pathetic. He was pathetic. Almost every new parent went through a phase where their kid barely slept. Everyone else could handle it, including Maddie and Chim, so why couldn’t he? How did they push through feeling so beyond sick, that left and right and up and down all looked the same?
Earlier, he swore he saw the version of Daniel he saw in his coma dream lurking behind him. Did they see ghosts too?
A soft thumb ran over his cheek. Buck couldn’t stop himself from leaning into it.
“Baby,” Eddie whispered, soft and oh-so-concerned. In no universe did Buck deserve him. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
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Or the one where Theo has kept Buck awake for four days straight, and Eddie won't let him fall any further.
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- Part 14 of Buck + Eddie
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06 Jul 2026
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18 months since the lawsuit ended. Everyone has finally forgiven Buck and is his friend again... Everyone except Eddie... Eddie pretends he doesn't exist. After an accident on the firehouse stairs, Buck very quickly learns that the best way for Eddie to acknowledge him is by getting injured. So... he takes matters into his own hands for Eddie's attention. Until it all starts getting a little out of control...
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The one where Buck's childhood habit to self-harm for his parent's attention comes back in full force for Eddie's attention.
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02 Jul 2026
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“Mr. Diaz!” The doctor said, holding her hand up as she stepped in front of him. “Mr. Buckley came in extremely confused. I know the restraints are upsetting–”
“Upsetting?” Eddie spat out, two seconds away from shoving her out of his way.
“—But they're for his and our safety.” The doctor was quick to finish as if Eddie hadn’t said anything.
“Your safety?” Eddie demanded. “He was just tied up by some psycho couple out in the desert and you’re concerned about your safety?”
Things don't go as smoothly at the hospital as they should.
BTHB Prompt: Kind Restraints
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- Part 4 of Princessfbi's Super Bowl aka 9x13 Fic Collections
- Part 13 of BTHB Fics
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01 Jul 2026
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Things are still raw after the lawsuit. Buck wants nothing more than to have Bobby be proud of him again. He gets the opportunity when a detective with the LAPD approaches him for a case. Only nothing Buck does seems to make Bobby happy. If anything Buck is afraid that he’s ruining his relationship with Bobby for good.
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Buck and Bobby Week 2026: Rescue Missions/Hugs/Never Again
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- Part 2 of Buck and Bobby Week 2026
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30 Jun 2026
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Following the grocery store incident, Buck decides everyone is better off without him so he accepts the settlement and disappears.
When the mudslides hit LA, what happens when Athena is the one who finds him?
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30 Jun 2026
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There’s a near constant itch in his fingertips, a desperation clawing at his skin to get a hold of the pills and to finally make it stop. To put an end to the voices in his head, the ones screaming at him every time he so much as breathes.
For the first time in his life, Buck finally felt like he’d come to terms with who he was as a person. He was a baker, an uncle, and on his way to becoming a frequent knitter. He was happy.
But he’s lost all of it, and he no longer recognizes the person he sees in the mirror.
Buck hates the new version of himself.
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OR Buck struggles during his withdrawal.
A 9x15 Coda from when Buck leaves the table.
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30 Jun 2026
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"Shannon used to kiss Eddie."
Oh.
Oh shit.
"You can't kiss Eddie because then you'll go away too," Theo whispers into Buck's shoulder. "A car will take you away."
Theo's breathing hitches again.
"Please, Buck. I don't want you to be gone."
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Theo sees Buck and Eddie kiss and jumps to conclusions only a four year old could.
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29 Jun 2026
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Buck and Eddie are on shift when Buck gets a phone call from Theo’s daycare.
Theo is inconsolable and wants to go home.
Buck bolts out of the station immediately to go pick Theo up.It turns out, the teachers had brought out a Mother’s Day craft for the kids to do after lunch and Theo had realised that he didn’t have anyone to make his craft for.
Buck is going to have to learn how to support his kid as he grieves. Eddie brings Christopher, who unfortunately has some experience, to help.
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Dating, not yet living together, buddie
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29 Jun 2026
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After years of chaos, Buck has finally built the life he once thought was impossible: a soulmate he gets to call his husband, three kids who are his entire universe, and a new beginning in LA that feels like hope. But just when everything settles, a diagnosis shatters the illusion of safety and forces Buck to confront the fight of his life.
The fic where Buck is diagnosed with cancer and has to fight for the future he always wanted — and the family that refuses to let him face it alone.
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28 Jun 2026
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Buck is about to walk out of the airport. He can’t do this. He won’t. But then a hand—a big, warm hand—settles on his shoulder.
“Hey, uh—”
Buck turns, and standing there is the most beautiful man Buck’s seen in his entire life. A week’s worth of stubble across his jaw and cheek, a strong nose, and the deepest, prettiest brown eyes he’s ever seen, framed by mile-long lashes. Buck’s breath catches. Buck’s not into men, but holy shit, if he was—he’d be into this guy.
Well. He is kinda into this guy. Well. That’s—
“I’m here with my kid,” the guy continues, throwing a thumb over his shoulder and pointing toward where a blonde-haired, smiling kid with red glasses and crutches is standing. The kid lifts a hand and waves. Okay. Even if Buck is into the guy—kid usually means wife. Damn. “He’s got CP. We’ve done this song and dance a thousand times. You want a hand?”
“Sir,” the man cuts in, “this is a private discussion—”
Buck, who really was trying not to cry before, feels like he’s fighting a losing battle now. His eyes are a little wet, and his hands, gripping his crutches, are shaking just a little. “Fuck. Yeah. Please.”
OR Eddie Diaz vs American Airlines.
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24 Jun 2026
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Buck was born with diminished hearing in both ears.
His parents, begrudgingly, signed him up for ASL lessons and allowed him to attend a school for the deaf, as well as speech therapy to ensure his speech wasn't behind his hearing peers.
or, buck is Deaf and it changes nothing (and everything)
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23 Jun 2026
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A fairly ordinary morning is turning into a nightmare of unreal propotions:
Buck has to deal with an unexpected turn of events, and his family has to deal with the consequences.
While everyone tries to uphold their hopes that he's out there, Buck fights to keep his sanity and to find a way to keep himself alive.
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or: A very dark and explicit fiction about Buck being victim to a predetor who is in over his head (even if he doesn't know just yet), when he tries to get away with kidnapping someone, who is dear and important to a certain fire fam.Series
- Part 1 of Survival is not enough
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Buck isn't looking, but he can feel the presence of someone else climb in with him. They situate themselves in the narrow space between the center console and the seats. A hand lands on the back of his neck, ensuring he doesn't move from this position. The pressure is firm, but not cruel.
"Relax," Red whispers in his ear, low and husky. "Enjoy the ride."
Buck hears doors slam and the shifting of gears. The car lurches, and so does his stomach, because it's evident that nobody is going to find him now. Relax? Impossible. He's going to be killed, his body will be buried in the middle of the desert, and he didn't even thank Eddie for the coffee this morning.
Or: Because Buck's life can never be simple, he finds himself with a gun pressed against the back of his head, in the middle of a feud that has nothing to do with him, and with five pounds of C-4 strapped to his chest. Somehow, that's not even the worst part.
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16 Jun 2026
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Post-lawsuit, Buck is running late to work due to the jeep breaking down. A freak accident leaves his life in the balance.
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15 Jun 2026
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Post-lawsuit, things are tense between Buck, Eddie, and Bobby, so Buck chooses to start riding with Hen and Chimney in the ambulance. An accident changes everything when Buck's life is left hanging in the balance.
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15 Jun 2026
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Buck Drops The Lawsuit.
He thinks he won't be allowed back to the LAFD, or at the 118.
So he goes on a vacation, to clear his mind, and figure out what he wants to do with his life now.
He makes some new friends.But, while on his vacation in Hawaii, something happens that changes the course of his life forever.
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- Part 5 of Lawsuit Fics
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13 Jun 2026
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Now he sits in the room, waiting for Dr. Lyra to come back. They did a CT scan for some reason. But Buck didn't think too much of it, thinking they just wanted to be cautious. But when she came back into the room, he could tell something was wrong.
"Hello again, Buck." Buck didn't let her finish, knowing she was just gonna best around the bush about it.
"What is it?"
"What do you mean?" Buck scoffs.
"I know that look. That's the look people get when they have to tell me yet another thing is wrong with me, so what is it?" Dr. Lyra sighs. She always hated giving news like this to patients.
"We did a CT scan as you know. And we found something that we originally thought was a blood clot in your brain." Buck nodded waiting for her to continue. He had a feeling he knew where this was going.
"I'm sorry Buck. We found cancerous tumors in the temporal and occipital lobe in your brain." Buck closes his eyes and turns away. In a way he feels like he's known for a while. But he never thought it was serious. It's like, you know when your brain tries to trick you into thinking you have cancer, or internal bleeding or something, but you never actually believe it.
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12 Jun 2026
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It’s not sudden or shocking. Just there. Something inevitable Eddie kept trying to rename into safer shapes. Best friend. Partner. Family. Anything except the truth sitting underneath all of it. His chest caves inward sharply.
Pepa’s expression changes immediately. “Hey,” she says. Eddie presses the heel of his hand against his mouth hard enough to hurt. His eyes are burning violently. Not now. Not here. Not after spending thirty-three years keeping this contained.
“I tried so hard,” Eddie whispers. Pepa goes still. The words slip out before he can stop them. “I tried so hard to be right.” his voice breaks on the last word.
And it finally destroys him. The exhaustion from spending his entire life trying to earn the right to exist comfortably inside himself. Tears spill before he can stop them. Eddie laughs once immediately afterward, humiliated on instinct.
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Eddie Begins Again
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03 Jun 2026
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“What's going on Ed's? Talk to me.” Buck looks up at him, his knees are starting to hurt admittedly but he'll be damned if he moves from this spot before he knows what brought his love to tears.
“You… don't remember, do you?” Eddie speaks quietly, his voice almost a whisper.
Buck reels back slightly at the question, confusion coursing through him, “Remember what?”
“Yesterday. Do you remember yesterday?” Eddie inhales.
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Or: Buck does his best to remember Bobby. It doesn't go well.Bookmarked by angstyaj
01 Jun 2026
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“A week,” Eddie sighed. “We can do this, right?”
Eddie’s gaze was pleading, needing assurance and comfort. His eyebrows were pinched in the middle of his forehead and Buck wanted to reach out and smooth it out with his thumb. Instead, he said, “’Course we can. We’ve faced tsunamis, beenados, earthquakes, broken dams… hey, where do we think the Diaz Parents Staying For A Week ranks?”
“Most likely to end in death,” Eddie muttered.
Buck clicked his tongue as he pulled the bowls from the cabinet for the salad, “That’s the lightning strike, actually.”
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The Diaz parents showing up unexpectedly to the shared Buckley-Diaz household leads to some unexpected confrontations, late night conversations, and over due confessions.
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31 May 2026