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“I don’t want it to look like anyone else,” Chris had said, not quite looking Felix in the eye like he was afraid to. “I want it to look like you.”
Felix hadn’t understood it then, seventeen and too scared to think straight.
He does now. Because he can live with this, if it comes in the shape of his Chris.
They've gotten this far. Even if he starts seeing that thing again, Felix won't break. Chris always makes sure of it; stitches him back together at the seams when they start to fray.
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28 Jun 2026
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Felix has spent years falling asleep in Chan's arms and pretending it doesn't mean everything. It was never a very convincing lie.
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27 Jun 2026
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Felix tells himself that there’s comfort in being alone. What he really finds comfort in is his HUGE crush on Chan, the leader of the 3-person group Racha. And writing fanfics about Chan.
Chan doesn’t always have enough moments to himself, but when he does, he reads fanfic. He prefers the cozy kind that allows him to dream of a love he never had the time to find.
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15 Jun 2026
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As Felix observes their rings, he wishes there was a more permanent way for the two of them to declare their affection and commitment towards each other in a subtle way that didn’t bring too much attention. Suddenly, Felix is struck with a stupid and reckless idea.
“We should get tattoos.” He says, raising his head to rest his chin on his husband’s pecks.
“What?”
“I said we should get matching tattoos,” Felix reiterates, fully leaning up on his elbows to look down at his husband. “It can be our small way of showing the world what we are to each other.”
Felix and Chan have two weeks off in Australia and come back with interesting tattoos.
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14 Jun 2026
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Felix is no tragedy.
At least that’s what he tells himself when unfamiliar hands touch, when money trades, when men whisper sweet nothings that don’t belong to him.
He’s not broken, just repurposed. Beautiful in the way something has to be when it’s already been destroyed once.
Then Chris walks in — too gentle for this place, too honest to belong there — and asks Felix who he is beneath all that shine.
Felix has survived every kind of love that hurts. He’s not sure he remembers the kind that doesn’t.
or: Where Felix sells the illusion of desire and Chris reminds him what it means to be seen.Bookmarked by fefffffi
11 Jun 2026
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There’s a comfort in believing soulmates are straightforward.
One person. One thread. One clear path to follow.
Felix believed he’d found that.
So he doesn’t know what to do when another thread appears.
He doesn’t know what it means, or where it leads. He only knows that following it might cost him that one person he’s never imagined losing.
Jisung. His best friend, his constant, his soulmate.
But now Jisung has a second thread.
Nothing feels simple anymore.
Do they have another soulmate? The same soulmate?
or: The red string theory, but make it messy.
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09 Jun 2026
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Chan thinks he's good at hiding the fact he's in love with Felix.
He's not.
For years, Chan loves him in all the quiet ways he can survive: love letters that he will never send, warm baths drawn after difficult nights, fingers brushing together against piano keys, slow dances stolen between royal obligations, and marigolds blooming faithfully beneath palace windows.
But love like this cannot survive silence forever.
Or: Chan spends years loving Felix silently and as Chan stands in a ballroom while another person waits to marry him, he finally realises there is no version of his future that survives losing Felix.
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09 Jun 2026
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He was not meant to fall. Not meant to choose. Only meant to witness, to carry the weight of eternity without favour or love.
He lingered too close to the edge, too close to the silence between the stars and choice. He wondered what it might be like to be loved, to belong to something smaller, warmer, and terribly finite.
In choosing one soul, he surrender the sky.
And fell.
or: Where Felix falls from the heavens – literally – crashing into Chris’s life in a burst of feathers and light. He’s disoriented, wings wounded and absolutely terrified of… everything.
Chris takes him in while trying to figure out how to help him return home — because that’s what Felix wants… right?
But the longer Felix stays, the more he tastes the beauty of being human and the more Chris quietly, hopelessly falls for this strange angel boy.
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06 Jun 2026
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“I can teach you. If you want.”
“Wh- what?”
He shrugged lightly, “We can have a practice kiss. I’ll teach you.”
His words were so casual, like they were still discussing the groceries. Like they were talking about taking the bins out, or the dirty laundry, or the washing up.
“I… I didn’t say that,” Chan stuttered, his face burning red hot. “I didn’t ask you to do that.”
“You didn’t have to.”
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Chan craves experience, and Felix is the best kisser he knows. Between Christmas parties, mistletoe kisses, and one very ill-advised idea, the lines blur quietly… And neither of them is in much of a hurry to redraw them.Bookmarked by fefffffi
03 Jun 2026
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Felix has a crush on a girl. She’s pretty, kind, funny, smart, and all around wonderful. This summer, he’s got the perfect plan to make her fall for him - this summer, he gets the girl of his dreams.
But then his friends’ other friend comes to visit. Chan is annoying, sarcastic, irritating… and yet, somehow, reminiscent of home in the most infuriating, sparkly-eyed way. Somehow, he's entirely impossible to ignore.
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02 Jun 2026
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“I might be a little ahead of myself,” Felix admonishes. “You are gay, aren’t you?”
”Uh, yeah. Well- bi. But yes. It- ah, it’s new.” Chan said, kind of on autopilot. His mind was still reeling hearing that apparently half the dance department knew him specifically for his music. He felt light headed.
“Hm,” Felix mused, taking a sip of his drink. “Just wanted to make sure.”
And then the other half of what Felix was saying hit him. Like a truck.
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Recently out as bisexual Chan finds himself enthralled with his classmate, Felix. What he doesn't expect is that Felix might have similar feelings for him.
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31 May 2026
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Felix loves his little town as much as he loves being a priest. He gets along well with the residents and made quite a few friends in the time he has lived here. However, his life gets a lot more chaotic when he meets Chan. It doesn't take long for their relationship to become complicated as the scary but beautiful stranger lets him forget about his godly calling bite by bite.
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Felix protects his community in the only way he can and ends up giving up on a lot more than a few drops of blood.Bookmarked by fefffffi
30 May 2026
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Chan likes routines. Deliveries arrive at 9:00, invoices are checked at 9:05, and flowers are sorted by 9:10. Everything has its place.
Then a box of carnation seeds gets delivered to the tattoo studio across the street instead.
Felix — loud, beautiful, and entirely unconcerned with boundaries — opens the package, brings Chan coffee he didn’t ask for, and proceeds to disrupt his life at exactly 10:05 every morning after that.
And Chan keeps letting him.
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28 May 2026
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"What?" Felix asked quietly.
Chan smiled.
"Nothing."
The answer clearly wasn't convincing, but Felix didn't push. Instead, he stepped closer until their shoulders bumped together, and Chan automatically slipped an arm around his waist rather than holding his hand.
It felt safe. It felt permanent. It felt like something that could never possibly be taken away.
That was why Chan didn't immediately notice the feeling settling at the base of his spine.
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27 May 2026
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There were no words for what sat between them. There never had been.
When Felix shivered, Chan offered the only warmth he had-the pelt around his shoulders, his hands, his voice. He whispered stories about the stars above the canopy, tracing out the shape of each constellation over the freckles on Felix’s arms.
Felix leaned into his touch without hesitation.
That was Chan’s undoing. Not the way Felix looked at him, but how he trusted him completely. Not because he was the Alpha’s son, not because he was to lead the pack someday, but simply because he was Chan.
Still, the tension grew heavier with each passing season. The pack looked at him differently, the elders became more cautious. Whispers curled like smoke around a single word no one had yet dared say aloud in front of Felix.
Ceremony.
It wasn’t time yet, but it would be soon.
And Chan knew, even if Felix didn’t, that everything after would be different.
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26 May 2026
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Felix volunteers to be Hyunjin and Changbin’s gestational surrogate after years of them trying and failing to have a baby. It’s supposed to be simple: carry the pup, hand it over, and go back to normal life.
What starts as an act of love slowly turns into the hardest nine months of his life.
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25 May 2026
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"The guy talking to your boyfriend. Who is he?"
Jisung follows Felix's line of sight to the bar, where Minho is chatting up the other bartender.
"Oh," Jisung says. "That's Chan-hyung! He's Lino-hyung's roommate."
"Oh…" Felix distractedly chews the straw in his soda, trying not to stare too obviously at him. "Is he new here or something? I've never seen him here before."
And Felix would definitely remember a guy like that. He's—well.
Hot, is the first word he thinks, adamantly trying to ignore the scornful voice in the back of his mind that sounds a lot like his stepfather. He swallows his guilt and tilts his head down, sneakily observing the guy from under his bangs.
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Wherein virginal Felix meets hot, older bartender Chan, and gets the opportunity to discover himself, explore his sexuality, and fall in love, all while trying to break free of his family's religious shackles.
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22 May 2026
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Chan is about to head into the back when he finally sees movement. A rush of blonde in his periphery catches his eye and he snaps his head back towards outside, frozen in place as he watches someone come out of the florist’s to feel the rain.
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Across the street from where Chan’s dimly lit bookstore is tucked away opens up a new flower shop, and the radiance from the new location as well as its charismatic owner lures Chan in.
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16 May 2026
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"My dearest Felix,
Growing up, my mum told me that sunflowers represent a lot of things — good things, like loyalty and happiness. I don't know if anyone's told you this yet, but the reason we have so many in the village and why we let them grow so big is because of how well it can sustain us. The elders tell us it warms the earth, that it brings rain. I'm sure you know the basic uses like oil and seeds, but did you also know we use it to tell time? The sunflowers face the sun the whole day through. They rise in the east every morning and set in the west every day, just like the sun.
That's how I feel whenever I see you. My eyes follow you day in and day out like sunflowers follow the sun. You're my sun, Felix — beautiful, like sunshine, and bright and warm, both inside and out. All I want is to be around you and your warmth, even if it's just once, just for a moment.
I hope you'll accept this courting gift. To see you wearing it would warm my heart."
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14 May 2026
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The truth is, Chan didn't think that his and Felix's breakup would be that big of a deal. And yet after unresolving tensions between the members that are causing the group's dynamic to quite literally shift, Chan finds himself where he wouldn't imagine: getting him and Felix back together so the rest of the members are back to normal.
But the offer isn't for forever, Chan ensures- no, certainly not forever. And Felix knows this. They're professionals. They can pretend to date each other again for the sake of the group and no other reason...
Can't they?
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09 May 2026