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  1. Public Bookmark 49

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    “The fabled danisnotonfire.” Martyn can’t help a smirk when the poor boy’s eyes flicker quickly away from his at the mention of his Twitter handle. “Welcome. You boys want a nightcap?”

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    05 Jun 2026

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    October, 2009: Dan is meeting Phil for the first time tomorrow. He just has to get through this night.

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    “The precious desire burning deep in Dan's gut is intoxicating and he should be so much more scared than he is. He’s still plenty terrified, but maybe just this once he can allow his heart to want this. He’ll pick up the shattered pieces later.”

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    formidable: (adj.) causing you to have fear or respect for something or someone because that thing or person is large, powerful, or difficult

    (title and inspiration from Formidable by twenty one pilots)

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    26 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 55

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    “Your family’s nice,” Dan says quietly.

    “Dan, are you okay?” Phil asks, “Your heart’s pounding.”

    “Yeah. Yeah. I’m okay.” How can Dan explain that he isn’t just okay? He’s so much better. “Thanks for having me.”

    Phil’s answer is quiet with exhaustion and muffled by Dan’s chest, but Dan hears him loud and clear.
    “Always.”

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    In 2009, certified loverboy Dan Howell crosses the country to spend Christmas with his boyfriend of two months and his family. He discovers that the Lester family handles the holidays differently than Dan's family does.

    In 2025, Dan and Phil invite their families to spend Christmas in the house they built.

    This is a fic about then, and now, and a few points in between.

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    17 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 65

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    dan used to disappear at odd hours without his phone, leaving phil to sit around anxiously waiting for him to come home. things have been better since wad. when dan takes a morning to himself to process the reality of the terrible influence tour, phil is forced to confront just how much this little habit of dan's used to affect him.

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    14 May 2026

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  5. Public Bookmark 88

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    Five times Dan wakes up Phil in the middle of the night. And one time he returns the favour.

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    11 May 2026