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a decent chap by calvinahobbes, yikesola for ahappyphil
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
08 Jan 2021
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“The fabled danisnotonfire.” Martyn can’t help a smirk when the poor boy’s eyes flicker quickly away from his at the mention of his Twitter handle. “Welcome. You boys want a nightcap?”
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05 Jun 2026
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i won't break your heart if you can break my spell by red-string-of-phate (milo_greyby)
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
30 Mar 2026
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October, 2009: Dan is meeting Phil for the first time tomorrow. He just has to get through this night.
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“The precious desire burning deep in Dan's gut is intoxicating and he should be so much more scared than he is. He’s still plenty terrified, but maybe just this once he can allow his heart to want this. He’ll pick up the shattered pieces later.”
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formidable: (adj.) causing you to have fear or respect for something or someone because that thing or person is large, powerful, or difficult
(title and inspiration from Formidable by twenty one pilots)
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26 May 2026
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our first christmas together (i love you) by gaydreaming
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
22 Dec 2025
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“Your family’s nice,” Dan says quietly.
“Dan, are you okay?” Phil asks, “Your heart’s pounding.”
“Yeah. Yeah. I’m okay.” How can Dan explain that he isn’t just okay? He’s so much better. “Thanks for having me.”
Phil’s answer is quiet with exhaustion and muffled by Dan’s chest, but Dan hears him loud and clear.
“Always.”~~~~
In 2009, certified loverboy Dan Howell crosses the country to spend Christmas with his boyfriend of two months and his family. He discovers that the Lester family handles the holidays differently than Dan's family does.
In 2025, Dan and Phil invite their families to spend Christmas in the house they built.
This is a fic about then, and now, and a few points in between.
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17 May 2026
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and you're back again, only different than before by dancingroses
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF), Real Person Fiction
24 Mar 2025
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dan used to disappear at odd hours without his phone, leaving phil to sit around anxiously waiting for him to come home. things have been better since wad. when dan takes a morning to himself to process the reality of the terrible influence tour, phil is forced to confront just how much this little habit of dan's used to affect him.
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wake up next to him in the middle of the night by postapologetic
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
30 Dec 2025
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Five times Dan wakes up Phil in the middle of the night. And one time he returns the favour.
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11 May 2026
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Dennis has never had the easiest time getting a full night of sleep, but when he gets an unexpected call from his father in the middle of a work day, he finds sleep evades him in a way it never has before.
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01 May 2026
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Dr. Baran Al-Hashimi can't seem to stay away from Trinity Santos.
Dr. Al-Hashimi is nothing if not a rule-follower, but there is something about Trinity that causes cracks to appear in the surface, and that classic Al-Hashimi composure may falter under Trinity’s spell.
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01 May 2026
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Dean has been procrastinating on his suicide for a long time.
It's been years now, he thinks. Like yet another apocalypse that's been happening silently in the background of all the others the Winchester brothers keep surviving. But this one, this special apocalypse is his own, personal, intimate one.
Mary died a year ago, already. At forty-one, Dean's body has been broken so many times he can't hunt anymore. His relationship with Sam is slowly dying out and Cas only visits once every few weeks.
He's alone.
So he tries to blow his head off. He misses, of course, like the failure he is.
But Cas comes back into his life when he's the most needed. He tends to his wounds and tries to help Dean exhume what's been buried for decades: himself.
What if Dean actually likes talking about his feelings? What if he doesn't want to lie anymore? What if he's not straight? What if he's not who he thought he was?
What if there's still hope?
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01 Dec 2025
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Dean is perusing the cereal aisle for his favorite breakfast box, and he runs into Mary and John Winchester.
But the thing is, Dean hasn't seen them since he took Sammy and the Impala and left town. So to say he's on edge is a little bit of an understatement.
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01 Dec 2025
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“But the sneaking around and the fact my brother has the emotional maturity of a fruit loop has got me thinking that Dean’s doing his usual pretending he has no feelings thing. And Cas…who knows.”
“Men,” Donna grumbles. “Guess it’s worse when there are two of ’em.”
“Hey, I take offence to that,” Sam chuckles. “I’m a man.”
“That why you’re not just talking to Dean about this?”
“Fair point.”
“So you really wanna put the screws to him?” Donna asks, mischief in her eyes. “Isn’t that a bit mean?”
“Listen, Dean’s my brother and I love him. But he’s also my big brother and I have a duty to exploit every opportunity I have to fuck with him.”
“Well, I can’t argue with that,” Donna shrugs. “You really think Dean’ll fall for it? Me putting the moves on him?”
“Well, it’ll make him squirm, that’s for sure.” Sam glances from the road to Donna. “You got a better idea?”
“Oh, you betcha.”
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- Part 5 of Sing a Song of Sex Puns
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01 Dec 2025
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Matt Pearson's life as told through the stories behind each one of his scars. And, man, does that clumsy boy have a lot...
(Based on S1E9 when Serena notices the scar on Matt's arm. I think we all thought it was hot asf)
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01 Oct 2025
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if you were church, I'd get on my knees by dealwiththedevil
Fandoms: Raven Cycle - Maggie Stiefvater
25 Dec 2021
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Ronan arched an eyebrow, a hand going to trace the cross at his throat, "Careful there. I'm a devout man, now. What would God think?”
"You know I'm not religious, Father." Adam said, and he couldn't disguise the slightly flirty tone in his voice.
Something flashed in Ronan's eyes, and Adam feared for a moment that he may have overstepped. That their past meant nothing. That they were practically strangers now. That Ronan couldn't be swayed from his overwhelming holiness.
But then Ronan put a large hand on the small of his back, and said, "You should really come to confessional after dark, Mr Parrish. All the nuns have gone home by then, and we'll have a nice, quiet place to talk over your sins.”
With those words and a surreptitious wink, Ronan strode out of the church.
[AKA years after they depart, Adam comes back to find out that Ronan is a priest, and confesses his sins in the confessional booth. Sexy times ensue]
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- Part 3 of TRC one shots
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15 Sep 2025
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It's 1990. Two years ago, Bobby Singer saved Jody's life by helping to kill her husband and son when they turned into zombies. Now, Jody's responding to a panicked call from a kid at Bobby's house. She finds a lot more than she bargained for.
or, Jody Mills adopts the Winchesters as kids.
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12 Sep 2025
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Build Me A Place (we'll call it home) by SpiritsFlame
Fandoms: DCU (Comics), Justice League - All Media Types, Batman - All Media Types, Superman - All Media Types
08 Oct 2019
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Kryptonians are not human. It’s easy to forget, even for Clark. That being an alien means more than his powers. There are traits rooted into the DNA, coming out in the subconscious, until not even Clark notices. Kryptonians, among other things, build Bowers for their mates, beautiful homes to settle into. It’s more than a tradition, it’s a way of life.
When Clark begins to redecorate, he doesn't know why it matters so much to him. And why it matters even more when Bruce doesn’t even care.- Language:
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25 Aug 2025
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Community Theatre AU where Dean gets roped into taking Sam to audition for a modern interpretation of Into the Woods, and ends up being cast as Little Red Riding Hood opposite Castiel as the Wolf.
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18 Aug 2025
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When one of Cas’ old I.D.’s gets rejected, Sam and Dean tell him afterwards it’s because his picture is outdated—but this doesn’t make any sense, Castiel explains; Angel vessels don’t age.
Dean has to break it to Cas that he doesn’t look like he’s in his 20’s anymore.
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18 Aug 2025
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Or, a year in the life of Dean Winchester
Dean’s bi: sexual and polar. He’s got a string of hospitalizations under his belt. He’s a felon. He’s got a secret. And he just might have a crush on the wry, socially awkward, and devastatingly handsome artist who lives in the apartment below his. But Dean doesn’t have friends, and he certainly doesn’t have relationships. He has what his therapist Pam calls “impulsive, reckless sexual interactions.” His attempts at meaningful connection have resulted in ruined friendships, broken hearts, restraining orders, and lifechanging ramifications. Dean’s too focused on holding down a job and relearning how to live by himself after years of being babied by his little brother to worry about romance, right? Right.
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- Part 1 of silver linings
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18 Aug 2025
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Castiel wakes up from the empty once again, Delirious, hurt and heaving.
Dean is going into a downward spiral quickly, struggling with suicidal ideation and self harm.
“Dean is begging. He’s shaking so hard it’s like a machine gun is going off in his body, rattling the man to his core. Castiel can’t make it out. He can’t figure out what he is praying to. Who is he praying to?
He can’t make it out, because there’s darkness clouding his mind all over again. It’s desperate, pulling and ripping its way through until it makes that specific vision go away. But Dean is praying.”
“I love— fuck. I love you, Cas. Castiel. I love you, fuck, please. Jesus, I can’t- Fuck. Please, I can’t.
He’s swung himself up so quickly into the real world that he can’t catch himself. It’s still dark, but he’s awake. Really awake. He’s no longer trapped in the nightmare. He can see his hands, oh, Jesus.”
Little snippet !
UPDATE SOON ❤️
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12 Aug 2025
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Locked away in a mental hospital with agitating fear and turmoil all around him, Dean finds it difficult to stay sane. Though when he meets the new patient Castiel, a young schizophrenic who dreams to do nothing more than to fly, Dean falls in love and the two begin a compassionate romance. However, when tragedy strikes, Dean is pushed to go to great lengths in order to keep Castiel safe.
Paper Flowers is a story of gentle benevolence surrounded by darkness and hostility. At its core, this story shows the dangerous depths of human nature and how far a person will go in order to protect the ones they love.
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12 Aug 2025
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What does John see when he looks at Cas?
Cas doesn’t look like a monster.
But neither does Dean.
John stands, slow. He holds out a hand. Calloused like Dean’s hands are calloused. Scarred the same way that Dean’s hands are scarred. There’s the smell of him in the air too. Earthy and dark, slightly sour around the edges. The room feels suddenly choked with it. Claustrophobic.
Cas probably smells like the fabric softener they buy in bulk at Costco, but so does Dean so he can’t tell.
John says, toneless, “I hear you’ve been driving my car.”
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The closer you are to what you want—
Dean's twenty-nine year old mother, his undefined relationship with Cas and their small family. Some kind of impossible reconciliation with John Winchester. Michael, out of his head, without destroying the world. His father's approval. To see the Grand Canyon.
—The more vulnerable you are.
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12 Aug 2025