ray_of_earness
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When Buck falls from a parking structure during a high-stakes rescue, Eddie is left to grapple with the sudden, crushing loss of the one person he never fully understood he loved. Stranded in El Paso with only Chris for company, Eddie finds himself unable to reach anyone from the 118—Bobby, Hen, Chim, Maddie—all of them silent, leaving him to face the weight of Buck’s death alone.
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Buck swipes his tongue over his blood-splattered lips, the metallic taste lingering on his tongue. Something sharp pinches the back of his hand, and he waits for the familiar, almost comforting sensation of pain medication to begin to flood through his veins.
The pain begins to recede to a more welcoming ache, though it continues to ripple across his pelvis in small waves. Buck’s body slumps against the rubble as the last of the adrenaline begins to leave his body. His vision swims in and out of focus, but one constant thought manages to break through the fog.
Eddie.
He needs them to know.
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OR Buck gets hurt when Eddie's in Texas and makes everyone promise not to tell him.
Bad Things Happen Bingo - Long-Term Recovery
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- Part 3 of Bad Things Happen Bingo
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05 Jun 2026
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Christopher’s chest heaved once, followed by the sound of a stifled sob. Like a dam breaking, he hunched over slightly, shoulders shaking.
He was crying. Why would he be—
Oh.
He looked up at Eddie, tears streaming down his red cheeks, the dark makeup around his eyes somehow unaffected.
“I’m gay,” he confessed between shaky breaths, his voice cracking over the words.
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Eddie refuses to raise himself
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05 Jun 2026
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Buck had lost-- he was sure of this now. His resolve only lasted a few weeks before his exterior began to crack; he was never a very good actor. He couldn’t keep up the greetings and the asking questions and the easy stroll. He let his shoulders creep up to his ears, let his foot tap incessantly. He did what his Captain told him, but stopped asking for anything more. Stopped following the conversation in the back of the engine on the way to the call; he just stared out the window, thinking about the case to come, preparing for it. When he woke every morning, there was no big recovery milestone to strive for, no big fight for the soul of his career to win. Not even the happy swell of being back on shift -- something so easy to dismiss, that had dominated so much of his life, that he had taken for granted-- that had catalyzed him each morning of his first week back.
An old habit of his had returned. A bad habit.~~
or: after the lawsuit, buck confronts what it was he wanted all along. he looks and looks and longs for it; the team looks right through him. buck breaks-- right down the middle.
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- Part 1 of Lighthouse Universe
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04 Jun 2026
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Eddie believes he is usually pretty good at reading Buck’s mind. It’s almost like he has a sixth sense for what his best friend is thinking. The two are just in tune with each other like that and have been since they first met. Eddie has always found this ability as a blessing in disguise. He knows Buck better than anyone else, inside and out. They have that thing when you meet somebody and just click.
Except right now, because Eddie has no fucking clue what Buck is talking about. Why his eyes are growing wide and his smile blinding. He doesn’t know what he is about to get himself into, but with Buck looking at him like that, it can’t be all that bad, right?
“Oh yeah,” Hen agrees.
“What are you talking about?” Eddie asks redundantly.
Buck’s eyes are peering down at him. He bites his lip, fighting off the growing smile, but it’s no use. “The Chappell Roan concert! You should come with.”
OR: Eddie, on the brink of his gay awakening and joy-seeking adventures, goes to the Chappell Roan concert with Buck and Hen.
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02 Jun 2026
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looowkey one of the best I've ever read!