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call it anything but love by shadoweddepths
Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe
22 Apr 2026
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“We should stop,” Sam pants the next time he draws back. But his hands somehow end up on Bucky’s waist, a rough grip that makes his knees weak and makes an unfamiliar warmth burn in his stomach.
“Probably,” Bucky agrees, because it’s the logical thing to say. He knows it and Sam knows it and all they need to do is just – stop. It might be awkward for a bit, but they can just pretend it never happened and go on bickering with each other until this mission is done. That’s what should happen.
But if Bucky’s being honest with himself, it’s not what he wants to happen.
(Sam and Bucky sleeping together throughout TFATWS. 5 times they say it means nothing, and the 1 time it means everything.)
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there is goodness in the heart of every broken man by shadoweddepths
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe
02 Feb 2026
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“Shh,” Bob whispers again. “Just relax, John.”
He does. He can’t help it. He’s fucking melting into the bed like Bob’s touch is magic, all of his thoughts dissipating in the sensation.
“That’s it,” Bob continues. His touch grows firmer – thumb rubbing circles into the knots in John’s shoulder. “Just relax. You’re doing good.”
The whimper that comes out of John’s mouth is entirely involuntary and incredibly embarrassing.
“Just like that,” Bob murmurs as if John hasn’t made a noise. “I’ve got you. You’re doing so good.”
It’s – he’s – John’s fucking burning up inside. He feels so warm. Doesn’t know whether to leave – to flee from whatever the fuck Bob’s words are doing to him, injury be damned – or to press back into the touch, to lean into the comfort and soak up these scraps he’s being offered.
(Five times John discovers his praise kink, and the one time he acts on it.)
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fault lines tremble underneath my glass house (but i put it out of my mind) by shadoweddepths
Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe
08 Jan 2026
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John’s like a passenger in his own body, watching himself fuck up one of the only good relationships left in his life, unable to stop himself from spewing hatred at the one person in this entire building who actually gives a shit about him.
“Can you hear yourself?” Bob asks, voice deadly quiet.
“What the fuck does that mean?”
Bob’s gaze is the kind of unflinching that makes John want to look away. “Can you hear yourself pushing me away?”
And that –
Yes. Yes, he can. And it’s – he doesn’t want to, not really, not Bob. Not the one person who offers him friendship without conditions or expectations. But he feels – wild. Uncontrollable. The anger is a living thing, thrashing in his veins, threatening to explode if he doesn’t let it out.
“Fuck off,” he snarls. His limbs are fucking shaking with it, with this thing inside him that he can’t control, and he –
[sometimes john's self-destruction gets the best of him. bob helps him pick up the pieces.]
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and the first time that you kissed me i drank dry the river lethe by Elle_dubs (avril_o), shadoweddepths
Fandoms: Good Omens (TV)
29 Sep 2025
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Aziraphale turns his head at just the right moment, just the right angle – and Crawley leans in with just the right intention – that what would have been a friendly peck on the cheek, a perfectly respectable human custom of farewell, turns into –
Into a kiss.
A real, honest-to-God kiss.
It’s –
Warm.
He discovers that Crawley’s lips are warm and soft and achingly gentle. That he takes a sharp breath when he’s caught by surprise, a puff of air that Aziraphale can feel against his skin. That he leans into the contact, into that brief, tantalizing touch, before his whole body stiffens and he pulls away.
five times Aziraphale and Crowley kiss, and the one time it matters
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[PODFIC] 'cause dying on your lips is how i wanna go by coveredinbees, shadoweddepths
Fandoms: Our Flag Means Death (TV)
05 Sep 2025
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Izzy can’t help it if he notices Bonnet sometimes. If his eyes land on the bulge of muscle under Bonnet’s rolled-up sleeves. If he occasionally wonders what it might be like to have those hands on him, those delicate and unscarred hands. If he thinks about the shape of Bonnet’s mouth, the curve of his lips and the particular quirk of his self-satisfied smile. If he just – just looks, sometimes, in ways he should definitely not be looking at his fucking boyfriend’s boyfriend.
“I’ve seen the way you look at me,” he says as if he can read Izzy’s mind. “I’ve seen you stare at my mouth.”
“You’ve seen jack shit,” Izzy retorts. Like fuck is he going to admit to any of that.
“I know what I’ve seen, Israel.”
Oh, fuck. The sound of his full name, spoken like that, sends shivers racing down his side. It’s a fight to keep his body in check, to keep himself from visibly reacting. He feels like he’s balanced on the edge of the cliff, still waiting to see which side he’s going to fall down. Like a step in either direction will irrevocably change his life in ways he hasn’t even realized yet.
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though time is ruthless it showed us kindness in the end by shadoweddepths
Fandom Marvel Cinematic Universe, Thunderbolts (Movie 2025)
09 Jan 2026
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let the brokenness be felt ('til you reach the other side) by shadoweddepths
Fandom Our Flag Means Death (TV)
05 Feb 2024
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A look into the healing and recovery of three intrepid pirates who are maybe a little afraid of their own emotions. The slow coming-together of Stede, Izzy, and Ed as they work through what they mean to each other and learn to take comfort in each other.
Title from the song "Mars" by Sleeping At Last
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please come to me (don't bury thoughts that you really want) by shadoweddepths
Fandom Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)
07 Jan 2023
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Five times Sam helped Bucky with his nightmares, and the one time Bucky returned the favor.
All titles taken from "Middle of the Night" by Elley Duhe.
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i worship you like holy days by virgosun
Fandoms: Heartstopper (Webcomic), Heartstopper (TV)
27 Jul 2023
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“Kiss me,” Charlie urges again, and then his hands are on either side of Nick's face, pulling his attention away from an angry ex and back to stormy blue eyes. It’s then that Nick knows he can’t deny Charlie Spring anything. And he’s sure he’d never want to.
“Okay,” he says through a shaky breath.
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Or, the one where Charlie’s a bit mean and Nick can’t explain why he likes it so much.Bookmarked by shadoweddepths
20 Jun 2026
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So Close (I Can Almost Taste It) by The_lazy_eye
Fandoms: Heartstopper (Webcomic), Heartstopper (TV)
25 May 2022
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Nick Nelson doesn’t have an oral fixation. He doesn’t. He swears.
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- Part 1 of Heartstopper
Bookmarked by shadoweddepths
20 Jun 2026
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"Do you know what you want to do for your birthday?" Nick asks suddenly.
"You," Charlie blurts out.
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16 Jun 2026
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we're in my bedroom (and you're getting undressed) by citydreaming
Fandoms: Heartstopper (Webcomic), Heartstopper (TV)
24 May 2022
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From Charlie: you barely even… i mean it was like five seconds
From Nick: if you saw me naked for five seconds how would you feel?
From Charlie: i’d be dead
OR: Nick walks in on Charlie changing and cannot stop thinking about it.
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- Part 2 of midnight moments
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12 Jun 2026
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Charlie can't be held responsible for what he does. Not really. After all, who gave Nick permission to be so perfect?
Charlie would rather pay attention to his boyfriend than the film they're trying to watch together.
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11 Jun 2026