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Maddy was on me in an instant when I arrived home. I knew it was coming, given the fact that I was rarely at home anymore.
"Do you even care about me anymore?" She snapped at me as we entered our bedroom. I gave Maddy a side-eye as I set my backpack down on the floor.
"Yeah. Why would you think I don't?" I asked, confusion laced in my tone.
"You're never here, that's why. You're always at Rue's," she stated and scrutinized me. "What the hell have you even been doing while you're gone? Because all I know is that you've been hooking up with two different people: Rue and Elliot." My skin got hot when she brought up Rue and me.
"I haven't been hooking up with Rue. Matter of fact, I haven't been hooking up with either of them. Elliot was a one-time and never again thing, and Rue..." I trailed off as soon as her name left my mouth. I didn't want to say anything to Maddy. Yes, I know that she knows about Rue and me having brief romantic moments, but we've never actually had sex before. "We're not hooking up," I added on tentatively.
"Yeah, you are. Remember the first day of school in the bathroom?" Maddy interrogated with a stern glare.
"We didn't hook up! It wasn't actual sex!" I spat. "Our clothes were still on, and just random fingering while she was high obviously doesn't count!" This caught Maddy off guard.
"Wait a minute, Rue fingered you?" She repeated. My skin grew even hotter, and I ran my hands over my face.
"I don't want to talk about it," I grumbled and fell back against my bed. I already knew the look on Maddy's face: eyebrows raised, and her mouth slightly parted.
"God, what is up with you two? One moment you two hate each other, and the next she's fucking you in the bathroom stall when you could be--- wait, when was the last time you ate?"
"Stop asking me uncomfortable questions!" I yelped through my hands. Truth is, I couldn't remember the last time I ate. The other truth is that I didn't want to accept how confusing my relationship with Rue was. Maddy and I stayed silent for a bit before I spoke up weakly. "She called me her girl last night," I blurted. This also caught Maddy off guard.
"Actually?"
"Yes."
"Where?"
"At the store."
"Which store were you at?"
"This random convenience store."
"What were you two getting?"
"Stuff," I claimed. Maddy gave me a suspicious look that told me she knew I wasn't telling the whole truth. "You can't repeat this to anybody, okay?" Maddy nodded in response. I took in a deep breath and stared at the ceiling before I admitted to what was going on. "We were buying pregnancy tests," I confessed.
A look of confusion was etched onto Maddy's face. "Why?"
"I think Elliot got me pregnant," I quavered. Maddy's face transformed from confused to shocked.
"Did you take one? What was the result?" She whispered.
"Yeah, and it was negative. But I didn't take it at the correct time. Apparently, you have to take it the day of your missed period, and I took it this morning." I mumbled before I let a moment of silence wash over both of us. Maddy stared into the distance in thought before she looked back at me.
"Then I guess a negative is most likely false, isn't it?" She reckoned to me. I nodded as tears formed in my eyes.
"Yeah," I mewled, my voice broken. I shuddered and wiped my eyes before I spoke up again. "I don't even know what to do. Rue wants me to get an abortion if it's positive, and she doesn't even know that the negative is most likely false. I don't want to get rid of it, though," I sniffled. Maddy pressed her lips together and sighed before she leaned forward and hugged me. Her sudden embrace caught me off guard, but eventually I melted into her and hugged her back.
"I can tell you don't want to get rid of it. What else can you do, though?" Maddy asked before I pulled away from the hug.
"I can't do anything to keep it," I trembled. It felt painful acknowledging that I couldn't keep the possible child growing inside me, but I knew it was true. There was nothing I could do to keep a kid, and there was nothing I could do to raise it.
"That only leaves one solution, then."
~
Sunday evening, I couldn't fall asleep. It was only 11 PM, so I decided to text Rue.
Me: U up?
...
Rue: yeah
Me: Can I please come over? I can't sleep
...
Rue: sure
Me: Be there soon
Rue was always a dry texter whenever we texted, but I didn't mind it. I knew that she didn't mean to be dry, and I also knew that she was most likely tired. I quietly got up from my bed, slipped on my shoes, and snuck out of the house.
I arrived at Rue's house, and I gently knocked at her bedroom window. A moment later, Rue slid it open, and I climbed inside. I stumbled on myself a bit, and I nearly fell as I entered. Rue let out an amused chuckle at my clumsiness.
"Hey, Rue," I greeted before I opened my arms and hugged her. Rue held her hands behind her back and leaned down to my level so I could wrap my arms over her shoulders. For some reason, Rue's bedroom felt claustrophobic and too warm for my liking. I was only wearing an oversized t-shirt and a pair of black 3-inch hot shorts, which only made it more confusing why it felt so hot.
"Hi, Lav," Rue responded a little too lightly. I pulled back from the hug, and I fixed my hair by tucking a chunk out of my face. Now it felt awkward: what the hell was happening?
"Thanks for letting me come over," I choked out ever so slightly. Rue didn't seem high, yet holding this tense conversation was challenging for me. Whenever Rue was high, it was really hard to hold a conversation with her since her brain was offline, but now? Now it felt like dragging a bag full of boulders trying to talk to her.
"Yeah, no problem," she replied and stiffly glanced around her room. Oh. She also sensed how awkward we were. The weirdest thing about this was that there was no reason for us to be awkward with each other. This was happening for no reason. Right?
Suddenly, I realized how close we were standing. After I pulled back from the hug, neither of us took a step away from each other. We were standing there, our breathing hot and shallow, and our bodies so close yet so far. I stared up at Rue, and Rue stared down at me. My eyes glanced down at her lips before they went back up to her eyes, and I let out a small shudder.
I took a deep breath in and out before I spoke up again. "Rue, are you high?" I asked, and made sure there was a worried look in my eyes.
"No," she murmured and shuffled closer to me. A soft giggle left my body from how hot and giddy I was feeling.
"I missed you, even if I just saw you yesterday," I stated with a smile. Rue grinned back at me before she suddenly grasped the back of my head and kissed me on my forehead. My smile widened at the feeling, and when she pulled away, I gripped the collar of her shirt and dragged her back down so I could kiss her on the lips. We both hesitated before we melted into each other and deepened the kiss.
As we continued kissing, Rue backed me up until my knees hit the edge of her mattress. She sat me down, and we broke the kiss. Rue lowered herself onto her knees in front of me, and she gently parted my legs so she could rest her chin on my thigh. She always liked my thighs: it's something she's been doing since middle school. She would rest her head on my lap, willingly give me massages, and now rest her chin on my thigh.
I was snapped out of my thoughts by her gently nibbling on the skin of my inner thigh. I shakily exhaled, and I let my hands travel to the top of her head for her to continue. But suddenly, she stopped any contact with my legs.
"Can you sit on my face?" The question shocked me to my core, and my eyes widened. I stared at her with a supposedly unsure expression, but I'm pretty sure it came off as scared.
"I'd suffocate you," I mumbled sheepishly, my face growing red.
"Lav. If you were to suffocate me, I'd be in pure bliss," Rue whispered, and she rose from her knees to meet my eye level. I uncomfortably leaned back on my hands and closed the gap between my thighs.
"You're just saying that," I stammered and looked down at my lap.
"I am so fucking serious right now, Lavender. Please?" She almost whimpered. I clenched my legs together at the sound of her voice, and I pressed my lips together.
"Are you sure?" I asked and looked back at her. Rue instinctively nodded her head with a pleading gleam in her eyes. "Aren't your mom and sister in the house?" I questioned again.
"They're sleeping," Rue answered in an instant. I thought about it for a moment before I finally answered her main question.
"Okay," I breathed out. Rue's face lit up like a kid in a candy store, and she got up. "Wait, where are you going?" I stumbled over my words.
"To clean my mouth," she answered, as if it was obvious. I watched her leave, still sitting on the edge of her bed.
Rue was one of those people who went overboard with preparation, and I guess cleaning her mouth so I could sit on it was one of those things. I sighed before I stood up to take my pants off. I slid my shorts down my legs and let them pool around my ankles, to which my underwear followed right after. In my own mind, I chose to ignore the wet spot on the fabric and turned it over so it wasn't visible. My legs felt like those of a baby deer as I climbed onto Rue's bed. I sat on my knees and waited for her to come back in.
Eventually, Rue reentered the room, and she approached me on her bed. "You look so gorgeous, baby," she drawled out as she scooped my legs out from under me and pressed me down against the mattress. Our lips met in a sweet, sensual kiss: open-mouthed, gentle, and minimal noises were made. But as soon as Rue's hands met my skin, the kiss deepened passionately: still open-mouthed, but rough, and our hands were going everywhere.
I let out a whimper into Rue's mouth, and Rue flipped us over in an instant. My legs were now straddling her hips, and her head lay back against a pillow. I felt my heart starting to pound in my chest as Rue beckoned me forward with a finger. I crawled up her body, and I sat on her chest, hyperaware of the slick leaving my body, which will most likely leave a stain on her shirt.
"Rue, I don't know if I can do this," I mumbled. Rue planted her hands on my hips, and she gave me a softened look.
"Hey, I'm gonna need you to trust me with this, okay? I won't kill you, and you won't kill me, I can guarantee you that," she stated firmly.
"I do, it's just, I've never done this before."
"That's okay, just please let me have this."
"Okay," I sighed. Rue gave me a wide grin before her grip on my hips tightened, and she pulled me over her face. I gripped the headboard of her bed, and I hovered myself over her mouth. Rue suddenly pulled me down to fully sit on her face, which made me let out a surprised gasp. Her tongue started lapping against my clit in an instant, and a shiver of pleasure shot through my whole body.
I looked up at the ceiling of her bedroom and forced a moan down my throat: I couldn't bear the embarrassment if Leslie or Gia heard me. Rue started to move my hips in a grinding motion, and the pleasure became more intense. "Rue.. oh my gosh," I whined silently. She let out a hum of acknowledgement, which vibrated through my nerves, and I let out a weak cry.
Rue then stuck her tongue inside of me, and she curled it upwards. That made me let out an uncontrollable moan, and I slapped my hand over my mouth. She continued to use that tactic on me until I felt the sudden urge to pee. It felt like there was a coil in my stomach that was constantly being tugged on, and could snap at any moment. The feeling was familiar: I recognized it from the first day of school, but it was still scary. "Rue, stop, I need to pee," I murmured and looked down at her.
After I said that to Rue, she didn't stop; she didn't even hesitate in her movements. "Rue, I'm serious. I have to pee," I stated. Rue hummed in disagreement, and she continued. My heart started to pound in my chest out of fear. I didn't want to pee in her mouth; that would be disgusting.
Suddenly, the coil in my stomach snapped, and my vision cut to white. I let out a loud gasp, and I nearly collapsed until Rue stabilized me. The feeling of release ran through me, and it lasted almost an eternity before I came down from my high. I gulped with slight embarrassment and moved off Rue's face. Her lips were glistening, and she gave me a not-so-innocent smile before she pulled me to lie down next to her in bed.
"You okay?" she murmured, pressing her forehead against mine. I nodded and looked down, avoiding her gaze. Rue paused for a second before she tilted my chin up between her fingers to make eye contact with me. "You sure?" she asked.
"Yeah," I rasped and hesitated before speaking up again. "I don't think anybody's gone down on me that good before," I chuckled softly. Rue chuckled with me and gave me a lingering kiss.
"Guess I'm your best then, huh?" She teased against my lips.
"Oh, shut up," I rolled my eyes playfully and kissed her back.