Archive of Our Own

Today

Ilya:

shane

shaneeee

shanya

Shane:

I’m here

What is a Shanya

Ilya:

russian nickname

we add suffix to name for affection

Shane:

Oh

That is very cute.

I like it

Ilya:

im glad shanya

sounds so cute!!

Shane:

Did you need something?

Ilya:

want to come over tonight?

Shane:

To do what?

We have work tomorrow also

Ilya:

whatever u want shanya

we can go to work together tomorrow

no pressure

Shane:

What if I don’t feel ready to have sex

like. Going all the way

Ilya:

then we dont

i didnt ask you to come over just to fuck

you are not a booty call

i ask you because i want to hang out with you

and buy you food. watch movie kiss a little

and then if u want. if you ask me. i will fuck you into the mattress

i will be very sweet to you shanya

but only if you want

Shane:

You are always sweet to me

But what if I don’t want you to be

Ilya:

??

Shane:

Sweet. In the bedroom.

What if I want you to be a little mean

Please keep being sweet outside of it though.

Ilya:

u are a gift from god

мой красивый мальчикmy beautiful boy

Shane:

Will ride with you back home after work. :-)

Make it worthwhile.

Today

Rose:

so you are dating

please tell me yes

Shane:

No

Not yet

We are hanging out casually

Hayden:

You sleeping at his 4 days out of 7 is casual?

Rose:

shaney what are you waiting for

that man worships the ground you walk on

and you look at him like he’s the last protein yogurt at the supermarket

Shane:

That analogy is terrible??

Hayden:

You are obsessed with those protein yogurts.

Shane:

They’re good for you!

Rose:

just like ilya😋

Rose:

i also know you two are finally on first name basis

next step is marriage

Hayden:

Yeah true

Rose:

Hayden it’s a joke it doesn’t mean you have to do it for real

Hayden:

Oh. Okay

Shane:

I love when the bullying is not about me

Rose:

so when are you telling him you’re in love with him

Shane:

I am not in love with him???

Rose:

🙄🫩

Rose:

ok then start tame. when are you telling him you like him romantically

Shane:

I don’t know. What if I ruin this

What if it’s all fun and games for him

Hayden:

Shane I don’t like the man

But he beat someone up for you twice

Shane:

Yeah but maybe not for me

Maybe he is fond of justice

Hayden:

Shane.

Rose:

shaney you’ve been at his last night

recount what you’ve done

let’s analyse it together.

Shane:

Ok. So we drove back together

And it was time for dinner

So he cooked me something I liked.

Hayden:

What did he cook

Shane:

Salmon and steamed broccoli

He is a very good cook

Hayden:

i’ve never seen that man eat ANYTHING healthy ever

Last time he ordered 3 big macs and ate them all in 20 minutes

Rose:

he cooked FOR you shaney he bought those things FOR YOU😭😭😭

Shane:

Honestly I thought he was just a very good host

But the thought of him going to the grocery store and buying those things for me

I feel weirdly emotional

Hayden:

That’s actually so cute

I am writhing in pain admitting it

Rose:

and then and thennnn

Shane:

Well we ate dinner and watched something

Then

Well I will skip over this part

Rose:

NOOOO DONT SKIP

I WANT DETAILSSSS

Shane:

No.

He was very sweet after. Drew me a bath

We took it together because I didn’t want him to leave me alone

Then we went to sleep

Rose:

shaney 🥺🥺🥺

that’s also the furthest thing from casual ever

Shane:

Then this morning we woke up early because I wanted to run and he came too

When we came back he went to shower and I wanted to surprise him so for once I cooked a breakfast he’d like too

Eggs with bacon

Hayden:

YOU ATE EGGS WITH BACON!????

Shane:

And he came out of the shower all happy and saw me cook smiled so big and he made coffee and

Sorry. I’m rambling

Rose:

don’t u dare stop this is so cute

shaney he LIKES you so much

sososo much

Shane:

You think so?

Rose:

positive

Rose:

and i don’t say so you can call him rn and confess your undying love

but he is clearly someone who cherishes and cares about you.

try to relax and enjoy it the conversation will come naturally ❤️

Today

Shane:

I told Hayden to cut it off

what moy Дорогой

Shane:

The name-calling? Insulting you?

You are not violent. Not controlling, nothing like that.

You are the sweetest person I know

i maybe am bad

was told many times

was joke. you can delete picture

if you’re embarrassed

Shane:

Ilya

Who told you that?

They don’t know you at all.

And I was a little embarrassed. Not of you. Never.

It was just a private moment for us.

But it’s true. We look very good

we look happy

Shane:

Yeah. I always feel happy when we’re together

so you don’t think i am controlling or selfish or like forcing you

i can be better

Shane:

Ilya no?? Never crossed my mind even once?

You don’t realize how thoughtful and caring you are

Because you just are. You are so good

mama told me i was good. i was nice boy, good son

when mama died no one told me again

papa and alexei. was just selfish selfish selfish and violent

then i escaped russia and i was traitor

turned back on family

Shane:

Oh Ilya.

I’m so sorry for your mama

But family is supposed to love you. It’s supposed to be where you feel safe and protected

You didn’t turn your back on family. You protected yourself

Not even all that pain in your childhood made you bad

Look at you now. You’re the best person I know

I knew behind that scruffy façade. There was something good

And I’m so glad you made me see it :-)

shanya

i am crying

do not tell anyone

sveta sometimes tells me. my brain is lying to me

but she is my oldest friend. maybe she lies to make me feel good

but if you say it i want to believe it

i know you wouldn’t lie to me

i can’t really see the person you see yet. maybe someday

but if you’re still here maybe i am doing something right

Shane:

I also wonder why someone like you would like someone like me

But maybe. Maybe wondering is not the point

I am grateful you want me

i will never stop wanting you shane

i want you more everyday

and i do not mean sex

well not only

Shane:

🙄❤️

i want to go on run with you at awful morning hour and eat breakfast and cuddle on the couch

i want to do many things with you. from simple to complicated

Shane:

Me too

I really like you Ilya

I wanna see where this bring us

i hope to courthouse for marriage

Shane:

ILYALKJS

is joke!!!!))))

(for now)

Shane:

You are unbelievable

I like white gold

Just a reminder for the foreseeable future.

my shane!!!

oh my god i am crazy about you

i am coming over

put the glasses on

Shane:

DO NOT SPEED

you read mind now???

i am slowly raising feet from pedal(((