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"You," Alfred said, voice suddenly venomous. "He loved you, though. Didn't he? Somewhere along the line. You were the quiet one, the good one. Never threw tantrums, never set anything on fire. Sweet, polite Matthew. Golden boy."
The last words dripped acid.
"Bet he still has that stupid painting of you in the attic or whatever. The one where you're all blond curls and big eyes. Bet he looks at it when he's drunk and gets all maudlin."
Matthew recoiled. "That's not-"
"Don't." Alfred's eyes sharpened, suddenly lucid and vicious. "Don't lie to me right now. Everyone wants you. And me? I'm the asshole they call when they need someone to bleed for them. You were so quiet, so good. Never demanded anything. He didn't have to try with you. Must've been nice."
Matthew's laugh came out strangled. "Nice? He forgot my name half the time."
"Yeah, but when he remembered-" Alfred's eyes were glassy, fever-bright. "When he remembered, it was soft, y'know Gentle. Like you were something breakable he didn't want to drop. Me? I was the thing he threw across the room to see if it'd break."
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02 Jul 2026
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Alfred narrated the whole time, voice low and excited.
"That's NGC 891-edge-on spiral, see the dust lane cutting right through it like a belt? Textbook perfect. And over here, look, look, that's the Helix Nebula. Planetary nebula. Dying star blowing off its outer layers. Kinda beautiful, kinda sad, right?"
Matthew backed away, lowering himself into the snow. The cold seeped through his layers, soothing rather than biting. He lay back, arms spread, staring up. The stars felt closer here, intimate. He hadn't realized how much he'd missed simple stargazing without schedules, without obligations.
He glanced at Alfred: still glued to the telescope, but the frantic energy had softened into something quieter. A small, genuine smile curved his lips, not the flashy hero grin for crowds, but the soft one only Matthew ever saw. It lit his eyes like reflected starlight.
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02 Jul 2026
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He was the monster now.
And heroes-
Heroes were supposed to slay monsters.
So where did that leave him?
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02 Jul 2026
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The older nation's shoulders visibly tensed under his shirt. "Why in the world do you suddenly care whether l'm proud of you? You've never needed my approval before. You've made that abundantly clear for centuries." He rinsed a plate aggressively, water spraying. “Look, I would unload it myself, but l'm washing these by hand first. It's only fair."
Alfred stepped closer, leaning his hip against the counter beside the sink. Up close, he could see the faint flush climbing Arthur's neck.
Good. Discomfort was the goal.
Then why did it feel like Alfred was the one bleeding out here?
"I demand payment, dude. This is the payment I want. Come on, they're just words. It's not like I'm asking for the Crown Jewels or anything unreasonable. I'll do everything. Just say it."
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02 Jul 2026
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After decades of resentment and silence, Arthur finally reaches out to Alfred. A late-night meeting in London forces both nations to confront the painful scars of their shared past colonial days, revolution, and the brotherly love that never quite died. Pure sibling angst, no romance.
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02 Jul 2026
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England reflects on how he molded a child America from the soil of the colonies and the regrets he has about that time.
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02 Jul 2026
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A sweet friendship that ends in death.
(pre-forsaken)
‼️ gender-neutral reader
🌺 universe inspired by the roblox game “stab an azure”Bookmarked by 4lilith
03 Mar 2026
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Doing The Best We Can In Hell by blairstar29
Fandoms: A Nostalgic Hangout Game (Roblox), A Crossroads Hangout Game (Roblox), An Underground Hangout Game (Roblox), Forsaken (Roblox)
01 Mar 2026
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Forsaken C00lkidd somehow gets stuck in An Underground Hangout Universe and now AUHG C00lkidd has to take care of him.
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27 Feb 2026
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America Cooks A Turkey And Kills Everyone by FattySenpai
Fandoms: Hetalia (Anime & Manga)
27 Nov 2025
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It's Thanksgiving at America's house but he forgot to do something important! Good thing he's the hero and knows what to do!
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29 Nov 2025
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Shiners and Soda Cups by anonslushies
Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp
16 Mar 2026
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Ponyboy didn’t know what was wrong with him. Everything had been going good; his grades were high, Darrel hadn’t hollered at him in a while, and the Socs even seemed to have backed off a little too. Even though, Pony was conflicted.
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Ponyboy navigates his feelings while simultaneously dealing with the obstacles of the 1960s.
*inconsistent uploads, sorry :(*
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23 Sep 2025
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“Well, I guess what I’m trying to say is that you don’t understand what it’s like to look at someone and see everything you’re not. Everything you want to be.” The words echoed in the silence; they sounded hollow.
Burr halted, causing Hamilton to almost collide into him. “I want to be you,” Hamilton said.
The graduate listened.
Then, quieter: “No, I want you.“
The words came out before he could stop them, candid and clumsy, like a spark trying to catch dry parchment—sudden, reckless, and far too late to take back if he wanted to. He didn’t.
Or, Alexander gives an unpolished confession to Aaron, which causes his brain to spiral and destroy the very thing he swore to protect.
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07 Sep 2025
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After an accident on the raceway, Glamrock Freddy is as concerned as ever for Gregory, the sweet but defensive child he's been looking after for these past six hours. Already, it seems their time with each other may be over, as six a.m. steadily approaches, leaving Freddy without answers, but most importantly...taking away his first chance to feel like he has more purpose.
As selfish as it feels, he doesn't want Gregory to leave.
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21 Aug 2025
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“Don’t.” Kabir fights down something panicky in his heart and reaches out, a hand on Yao’s thigh. “Don’t say such things. Don’t invite such rotten luck. What will I do without you on my doorstep?”
“My country will live on without me. There’ll be a new personification.”
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They are old countries. Sometimes they get tired.
IndChu. Hurt/Comfort, kinda domestic.
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25 May 2025
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Yao is a clingy, romantic, and difficult patient. Kabir indulges him.
Historical Hetalia oneshot. IndChu.
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25 May 2025
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1836: Ridden with guilt, Kabir tends to an ailing Yao as he goes through opium withdrawals. After all, it's his fault Yao is addicted, in the first place...
- pre-First Opium War, Historical Hetalia, India/China, Abusive England/India, Drug Addiction, Imperialism -
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25 May 2025
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VALENTINE'S DAY isn't always for exchanging gifts with those you love. Sometimes, it's about remembering those we've lost, and being thankful for those we've gained.
[Under Grammatical Editing: 1/3/26]
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16 Feb 2025
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Neuvillette goes to Liyue with the idea of judging the Geo Archon, what he finds instead is a former Archon going through erosion trying desperately to cling to his memories.
It surprises him to suddenly understand he can't leave him to suffer alone.
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18 Dec 2024
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Qiqi secretly has an idol dad, Baizhu, who is part of the group Dendro alongside Tighnari, Alhaitham, Kaveh, and Kinich.
As the oldest and with a weaker constitution, Baizhu is the least popular member, but to Qiqi, he is her number one idol.
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- Part 14 of Qiqi's Tales
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08 Dec 2024
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It takes all you have to earn the trust of the boy living at the edge of the tribe. He doesn't think he needs anybody, but you are the only person who can change his mind. ♡
"𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶. 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯. 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘤𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘶𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵. 𝘚𝘰 𝘐 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘦, 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘺𝘴𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺, 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘣𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦."
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26 Nov 2024