20 Bookmarks by Rawk2uah
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i would never speak it (your secret) by jamespctters, lauriesamy for rizcriz
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
22 Jan 2026
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“It just—when we were at the club. You made it seem like maybe, there’s a reason you’re not dating… women.”
Eddie freezes. Ravi had said it the other night, but Eddie had not been expecting him to so boldly repeat it after the previous unfavorable reaction.
“And—I—I know that sometimes reasons for not dating women can be… um, you know, hard to process. Alone.”
Oh good lord, he’s really going there.
OR: 9x07 Secrets (Eddie and Ravi's version)
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28 Jun 2026
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Missing Chris is less of an emotion these days and more of a physical entity. He’s sure everyone can see that he’s slowly hollowing himself out, that he can’t do much of anything else.
But when Jee laughs at him trying to get his tongue to touch his nose, and Mara loops one of her arms through his to keep him from tossing the rest of his cup in the garbage, Eddie feels solid again.
Maybe he likes yellow birthday cake ice cream after all.
(or, gerrard messes with the team's schedules and eddie 'i just drove my son to flee the state' diaz is the only option to watch mara and jee-yun after school on tuesdays, which, shouldn't be a problem at all, right?)
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I'll Feel You Forget Me Like I Used to Feel You Breathe by turningthepages
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
22 Mar 2023
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A car accident leaves Eddie without ten years of memories. He forgets meeting Buck, falling in love, getting married, and bringing two more kids into their life. As Eddie struggles to adjust to this new life, Buck struggles with being in love with someone who doesn't want to remember him.
Oh, and they have really cute kids.
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Just another Hollywood Amnesia story the fandom probably didn't need but lived in my head rent free for too long.
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- Part 1 of I'll Feel You Forget Me
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Years before joining the 118, Buck’s travels take him to El Paso, where he meets Christopher. When Eddie comes back from Afghanistan and Shannon leaves, Buck ends up staying. As bills pile up, the best move is for them to get married, just for convenience, they’ll divorce when Eddie comes back from his re-enlistment.
Then Eddie gets injured and it’s just easier to stay married for a little longer, while Buck gets started at the 118. However, Buck doesn’t mention his ‘husband’ and kid, not feeling like they’re his to keep. When Eddie gets the offer from Bobby, they decide to lie and pretend they don’t know each other, so they can work together.
The whole lie gets out of hand as feelings start to become real, until it all comes to a head in the aftermath of the fire engine explosion.
AKA: Secret marriage of convenience buddie slow burn AU, where Buck and Eddie have been married for years so Buck could adopt Chris and no one at the 118 knows.
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- Part 1 of The I Do Verse
- Part 1 of All the Different Ways to Say I Do
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He sighs, eyes finally meeting Eddie with a tinge of sadness burning the corners of his gaze, “I’m leaving tomorrow morning.”
Panic fills Eddie’s lungs as he leans forward from where he was laying back in the now uncomfortable lounge chair. No, he thinks, not yet. He can’t let go of this yet. He doesn't want to say goodbye yet.
“But I- I’ve really liked hanging out with you, Eddie. I wanna know you. I wanna keep knowing you. These last two days have been like… the most fun I’ve ever had, so I just—“ Evan lowers his voice to a hushed whisper, a sound so soft it could only be meant for Eddie, “I wanna make it easier to find you again.”
OR buck & eddie meet on vacation as kids. years later, eddie shows up at the 118.
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“But with Bobby, I’ve been trying to do better,” Eddie says.
A hand rests on his shoulder, a thumb stroking. It’s a familiar gesture, but the fingers aren’t calloused enough to be her brother’s. Maddie’s fingers are slimmer, more delicate. It eases the hurt all the same.
“I think you have been,” Maddie reassures him, “at least you’re not joining illegal fight clubs this time. Just very legal book clubs.”
Eddie snorts. The callout was unexpected.
“You’re not what?” Karen’s eyes bulge out of her head as she sits back down.
Eddie chuckles and finally meets Maddie’s gaze. “I hate that Buck tells you everything.”
OR: Eddie joins a book club with Maddie and Karen after Bobby’s death, while Buck slowly drifts away.
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"Hear me out," Buck said. "Clearly, both of us are sick of dating other people. And we're a good fit, in pretty much every way that matters. So what if we're not in love? We don't need to be in love to be happy together."
Eddie frowned. "So basically, we'd be boyfriends, without benefits?"
"Yes!" Buck snapped his fingers. "Like platonic boyfriends! We'd get all the benefits of a relationship and none of the heartbreak."
And maybe Eddie had finally lost his mind, or maybe it was from all the alcohol clouding his judgment, but the idea of it didn't sound half as crazy as it should have.
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After Buck’s and Eddie’s dates both end with disasters – proving once again that maybe dating just wasn’t meant for them – they decide to simply settle for each other. If there was one person in the world they'd ever trust with their hearts, it was each other. And who was a better person to date other than your very own best friend?Series
- Part 1 of What's love?
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Eddie’s been in love with Buck for years—but he’s good at hiding things, burying feelings, and pretending everything’s fine. Until one night, he just... can’t anymore. He blurts out that he wants to scene with Buck, and to his surprise, Buck says yes. What starts as one scene quickly spirals into something deeper, something neither of them are quite ready to admit out loud. Cue: seven years of pining, mutual idiocy, soft dom!Buck, emotionally constipated!Eddie, a whole lot of feelings, some very intense aftercare, and eventually realizing that sometimes, love sounds a lot like “Color?” and “Green.”
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eddie's not entirely sure he believes in getting help, at least not for himself. there's only so much healing to be had for a body torn apart by bullets, for a mind that's only half there, for a man who's been leaving pieces of himself behind all his life with nothing to take their place.
except, as it turns out, falling apart happens in increments, and healing does, too: it happens when you gnaw a hole in your lip trying to keep quiet only to have the words escape; when you realize that the ghost you've been seeing out of the corner of your eye is yourself; when your best friend smiles, and you allow it to take your breath away.
it happens through the smallest of things: bird feeders, and cacti, and pasta shapes.
meanwhile, the world goes on.
(or: the entity often affectionately referred to as the unrepression fic.)
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- Part 1 of tell me about despair
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Running to the frontlines from a childhood he never had. Taking a bat to the wall with his son in the next room. Having an affair with the spitting image of his dead wife.
Eddie knows he’s never been good at grieving, knows he’s never been good at losing what little he allows for himself in the first place. This is why he also knows his coping mechanisms can’t possibly get any worse.
Buck, as he so often does, makes him reevaluate his assumptions.
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Evan Buckley dies behind a wall of glass. It’s a shame that when he’s revived not three minutes later, no one is informed. -
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No matter the distance, the silence, or the storms in between – what’s meant to find it’s way will always do so. The universe, in its quiet wisdom, knows how to bring hearts home.
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Buck and Eddie can’t stand each other, constantly arguing and getting on the team's nerves. On a call, a botched magical encounter leaves them stuck hearing each other’s thoughts. Forced into unbearable closeness, they unravel secrets, past wounds, and inconvenient desires. What begins as a curse turns into the most intimate connection either has ever known. But falling in love when your enemy knows everything you’re thinking? That’s the real risk.--
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#thosetwofirefighters starts to gather a following on social media, as everyone tries to figure out if those two cute firefighters from the 118 in LA are a thing or not.
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Buck had lost-- he was sure of this now. His resolve only lasted a few weeks before his exterior began to crack; he was never a very good actor. He couldn’t keep up the greetings and the asking questions and the easy stroll. He let his shoulders creep up to his ears, let his foot tap incessantly. He did what his Captain told him, but stopped asking for anything more. Stopped following the conversation in the back of the engine on the way to the call; he just stared out the window, thinking about the case to come, preparing for it. When he woke every morning, there was no big recovery milestone to strive for, no big fight for the soul of his career to win. Not even the happy swell of being back on shift -- something so easy to dismiss, that had dominated so much of his life, that he had taken for granted-- that had catalyzed him each morning of his first week back.
An old habit of his had returned. A bad habit.~~
or: after the lawsuit, buck confronts what it was he wanted all along. he looks and looks and longs for it; the team looks right through him. buck breaks-- right down the middle.
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- Part 1 of Lighthouse Universe
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When Eleven saves Will from Vecna she gets more than she bargained for when they wake up in the wrong bodies. Now to prevent Vecna from infiltrating the mind of his most perfect host the two of them must pretend to be the other.
Will grapples with the feelings that he’s trying to push away.
Mike wonders why it feels like he’s falling in love all over again.What will become of everything when Hawkins finally falls?
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- 66,750
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- 25/30
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15 Dec 2025
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It’s winter in Hawkins, and Mike and Will aren’t speaking anymore. Living in Mike’s house, Will tries to be invisible, spending most of his time in the basement.
Then the power goes out — and if there’s one thing he dreads more than facing Mike, it’s the cold.
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Seven nights in which Mike and Will have to sleep in the same bed, even though they’re barely friends anymore.
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- English
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- 52,631
- Chapters:
- 8/8
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05 Dec 2025
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One night at Sinema is all it takes to change everything Brett and Liam thought they knew about one another. The tricky part is making it all work out.
(Or the one where Brett stubbornly refuses to acknowledge how he feels about Liam).
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- 152,557
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- 15/15
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30 Jun 2025
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After the Anuk-ite and the hunters are dealt with Liam needs a break. Cue Theo and a road trip that Liam should know better than to think will be peaceful.
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- English
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- 236,875
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- 43/43
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- 6
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- 12,696
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26 Jun 2025
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Mason squints at him. “I’ll trade you an answer if you trade me one, too.”
“Something tells me this is not gonna be a very efficient way of communicating.”
Mason shakes his head. “Just--tell me something. What are you even doing here?”
Theo wiggles his empty paper cup in the air. “Having some ice cream.”
Mason eyes the cup, then him. “Yeah, but...why?”
“Oh, I’m sorry,” Theo snarks. “Did I miss the memo where ex-psychopaths were banned from enjoying ice cream?”
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Or: How Mason and Theo go from unwilling confession partners to stylist and stylee, to a strange sort of forgiveness. And through it all, Liam's presence shows Theo's capacity, possibly, for love.
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- Part 1 of From the Outside
- Part 20 of Author's Favorites
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26 Jun 2025
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built a ship in the morning but the hull’s worn through by eneiryu
Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV)
27 Apr 2019
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Theo’s the one who idiotically decides to open his mouth to warn Scott and the others about the Chemult pack alpha’s temper, so, really—everything that happens after that is his own goddamn fault.
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- English
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- 74,974
- Chapters:
- 2/2
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26 Jun 2025
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trying my best, nobody showed me which way to go (i didn’t know) by justt_ppeachy
Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV)
17 May 2023
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“You deserve to have a constant that’s not the ground beneath our feet,” Liam says, unaware of how he just knocked the breath out of Theo’s chest.
‘Can that be you?’ Is the unspoken question Theo pleads with himself to ask but he just can’t get the words out.
But then Liam smiles and winds his fingers around his wrist again before pulling Theo onto the bed beside him, and he thinks that maybe Liam heard the question anyways.
(or where theo is learning that maybe he’s a little fucked up and finding ways to accept it)
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26 Jun 2025